do u believe in santa claus??

yesterday i was watching a movie called 'single santa looking 4 mrs.claus'...the synopsis is something like this > A single mother whose faith in love died with her former husband learns that Christmas miracles can still happen in director Harvey Frost's warmhearted tale of winter magic. Beth Andrews (Crystal Bernard) is a devoted single mother and advertising executive whose current campaign could put her on the fast track to the big time. The holiday season is here, and in order to sell the latest in video game technology, Beth's campaign needs the perfect Santa Claus. As Beth burns the midnight oil night after night and attempts to convince her young son Jake (Dominic Scott Kay) never to have faith in fantasies, the wistful young man pens a letter to Santa asking for a new dad for the holidays. It seems that up in the North Pole the time has come for Saint Nick to pass along the seasonal responsibilities to his son Nick (Steve Guttenberg), but in order to take the position, Nick must have a Mrs. Claus before Christmas Eve. Upon receiving the Christmas request from young Jake, Nick sets his sights on Los Angeles, and Beth Andrews in particular. Despite his best intentions, it's going to take more than a Christmas miracle to convince the dejected widow that love can still conquer all.

so it's another one of those romantic comedies where everything ends up just well n perfect... but while watching d movie, while watching Nick tryin 2 convince Beth that Santa is real it kinda reminded me of when i was a kid... i think when i was abt 4 or 5... dat christmas, as usual we went 4 d midnite mass... n when we came back.. all the presents were under d tree, n d glass of milk we left n d cookies were gone... well at dat time i was pretty sure i couldn't hv been my parents cos they were with us d whole time n wouldn't hv had d chance 2 do it b4 we came home... so i really tot dat Santa really came n gave us d presents.... n wats more, d following day when we were on our way 2 visit our grandparents in melaka, we passed this car which Santa, literally was sitting in....dat guy really looked like d SAnta in d movies.... wearing dat bright red suit, those gold-rimmed specs, dat bushy white hair n beard.... my sis n i were so excited seeing him... n he din dissapoint us.... he waved n winked at us, just wat Santa if he really existed would hv done.... it still tickles me when i recall dat moment... two excited lil girls n a car, n Santa in d next car waving... kinda like evry lil kid's dream come true... i guess it would hv been better if we saw him in a sleigh wit his reindeers XD...hehehe..

so dat brings me to d question

do you believe in Santa?

for me, i know i believe that Saint Nicholas existed,n he would hv given out presents 2 poor lil kids... n after he died, some good soul just kept up the tradition... but Santa i ain't so sure... i guess it's just so hard 2 believe dat some1 can go to all d lil kids in d world in one nite n give them all d presents... it's just too hard to believe for me... imagining is easy..... but wat abt u??? wat do u believe????

the beauty of little children

little children are a joy
to all who see them,
they are the best teachers
when it comes to loving and living
for they love without caution
and they live life to the fullest.

often we forget,
the simple beauties of life,
but for me,
i just need to look at a little child,
be it boy or girl,
n they can bring
joy untold to the depths of this cold heart.

only the little ones,
can give you a smile so true,
a smile that comes
right from the bottom of their hearts.
even hearts of stone will be melted
seeing true joy n love
in this world of lies n deceptions.

and most of all,
little children love you
for who you are now,
the care not of what you did,
or what you may do,
all that they care and love
is you,
just you, for who you are;
why so??
because children are gifted by God,
they can see right through your heart,
no words spoken,
they love you for that.

little children are a gift
a gift from God to this burdened world
that we may see and learn
that we too need to be like them
loving n trusting unconditionally
our great Father,
so we may one day be wit him too...





this is written for the little ones who hv made my life richer than money can possibly give, just by the presence of their lives in mine. especially for christina, damien, kathrina, luke boy n darrel, love you kids a lot. much more than words can say

time sure flies.....

phew!!!! as the title says, time sure flies... it's been 2 days sincemy last post n somany things have happened.... we'll go back 2 wed n d events dat happened....

highlights of wedesday:-

1) was at d undang testing center at 8am...was excited 2 sit 4 d test so i could faster go 4 d amali n start drving lessons.... but no, d stupid &^*&$^#^$# jpj ppl had 2 leave their computers off9... so i couldn't book my id 4 d test..... was there till 1pm n still cannot....hmmmph...malaysia really sucks...after waiting dere 4 5 bloody hours... my mood was sour....

2)came home,had lunch n den mom made me clean up d study room.... cant blame her actually, cos d room has been in a total mess since d AS exams...yes i know it ended like a month ago.... but i cant help it....pity d poor child... i am a procrastinator... it is my duty 2 procrastinate....hehehe...XD

3) time now is 4.30pm n i'm rushing 2 d hair dressers.... my hair has been like a golly-wog (i dun think dats d rite spelling, but who cares)... not really dat bad la, but its been real messy... so got a good hair cut.... not dat i've got a diff style or anything, but it just feels good 2 look neat...

4) at home again n now rushing n putting up a few more strands of lights... no idea wats gotten in2 us this year, but we're in 2 a very lighted up mode.... there's lots of lights ard our hse, even on d outside...had 2 get all dat done b4 6.30pm cos after dat had 2 go makan, mandi n go carroling....

5) we ran behind time.... its 7pm now n now only we eating dinner... so rush rush n eat n den go mandi.... n den by 8pm we were out of d hse.....n on d road carolling from hse 2 hse... damn it was fun hanging out wit all those wacko fellas.l.. esp d twins roy n & collin.... they r so crazy dat i can't find words 2 describe....it's kinda funny dat i'm sayin this altho they're only 2 yrs jr 2 me.... but i've seen them grow up... n it's really cute 2 see their faces sometimes when i remind them of wat they used 2 do round church.... hehehe.. i guess i'm alwayz gonna hv a soft spot 4 those 2 fellas....

6) back at my place at 10...d carollers r on their way 2 my place now... y u may ask???... cos my hse is d last spot 4 d day....hehehe....we made them sing extra songs....n santa wanted 2 dance but sadly no1 wanted 2 dance wit him.... poor santa!!!.....pics n vids will be posted l8er when i upload them frm d cam.... d whole affair ended at abt 11.30pm... n den i crashed in2 bed..... a suprisingly wonderful ending 2 a day dat began so sourly....XD


now, d highlights of thursday:-

1) again i had 2 go 2 d undang testing center at 8am...n again d jpj comps were off9....haiyo.... i hv no idea wats happening 2 our country.... but anyways at abt 9 d comps suddenly came on9 n my name managed to get an id 4 d test.... phew!!.. porr thing d 2 other guys who came wit me.... n sommore after my name went in ar... they nvr tell me until i went n asked them.... then only they said "oww ur name managed 2 get booking edi"... menyampah betul!!! so if i din go n ask them i think i'll hv 2 wait till 1 something again....so finally i went 2 sit 4 d test at 10.20am.... quite easy la d test... on contrary 2 wat others say... as long as u read d 500questions book ar... sure can pass....anyways i passed 48/50....whoot!!!! now i can go 4 amali edi n start driving... yipeee!!!!

2) came home happily.... n den mummy says..."come follow me, i'm goin 2 do pedicure, wanna do also?".... of course la i wanna do...so i went wit her... n now i hv a nice xmas design on my toes.... next week we goin 4 manicure....the luxuries of life i love...XD

dat was basically d highlights of thurs la... i gues we all were kinda tired n need d rest, so basically d rest of d oafternoon was spent sleeping n carolling at nite again...

today is friday, n while d day has just begun we've already set one cake for baking...n preparing d ingredients 4 another one....wohooo!!! so 2day has officially been labled by me as 'baking day'......


2 be cont l8er

the most wonderful time of the year.......

today was the most hectic day ever....started off in d morning at 10 la... b4 dat was lazying ard a bit....so dat dun count.... as i was saying....started at 10 by following mummy 2 giants 2 do all the provision shopping n all d stuff 4 baking n we were supposed 2 buy a turkey from dere as well...cos in our home, the celebration is only complete wit mummy's home baked turkey n stuffing....mmmmm, makes my mouth water just thinkin abt it....anyways, giants din hv d turkey...so we drove all d way 2 tesco 2 buy d turkey.... n just our luck.... it was d lst bird dere....phew!!!...now we're back home at 2 p.m...... imagine dat, 4 hours just spent 2 do shopping.... now come d xmas deco all, after lunch n a lil resting we start by putting up d tree....btw ppl, d tree is taller than me...so i was hving my ego battered by a non-living tree who was giving me hell just coz he was taller than me....hmmph!!!... but d tree looks so pretty now wit all d deco on it....hehehehe... i just love xmas time... n we were doin d deco till abt 5.30 p.m.... cos then mummy had 2 go n pick mel up from work.....mummy came back at abt 7... and then we continued 2 put d deco all ard d house.... the house looks so greeny n blinky now.... in d middle of doin it all, yours truly had a spectacular moment.... me slpping form d top of d organ, side stepping d organ chair n landing on d floor on my hands like some pro break dancer.... phew!!! n no bones broken!!! dats a miracle i tell ya.... had no idea i could do moves like dat....do it again intentionally i think i'll break some bones....

grace if ur reading this, i blame d falling on u.... watever happens 2 u seems 2 happen 2 me n vice versa.....better get me a nice xmas present ya!!!!hehehehe.....

so dat was d most hectic day ever....we only finished all d decorating at abt 9.30... took damn long.... but d house looks so nice n chirsmassy now.... i love this time of d year.... it certainly is d most fun time of all....

happy feet.....hmmm

since classes ended yesterday at 12.....grace n i decided 2 treat ourselves wit 'happy feet'....the whole event was practically free....

1) d ride from coll to pyramid: initially, grace n i decided we would hail a cab n get ourselves there 4 the show at 12:10... we didnt hv 2 cos wai cheng offered 2 send us there on her way home.... no $$$ spent at all...

2) den comes d movie tickets... grace's dad managed 2 get some free passes 4 us 2 watch the movie.... so dat was also free

3) d ride back from pyramid 2 coll: grace had arranged wit her dad 2 pick her up after we were done.... so i got a free ride back 2 coll.... again no $$$ out of d pocket.... XD

see, the purpose 4 d outing was paid for, n d transport also all covered.... so practically grace n i went 4 a free show.... don't it just give new meaning 2 'free show'??....hehehehehehe....

anyways the only $$$$ spent was when we bought the popcorn n drinks.... dats all.... a mere RM8 spent 4 2 persons 2 watch a movie... life is good....

so now lets talk abt the star of the movie, mumble happy feet.... i totally feel for d dude, cos i 2 am hopeess at singing.... tho i dun think i'm as bad as he is... i can carry a tune sometimes... not always, but sometimes....anyways, i think it's cool dat he can't sing cos in d end it was his tap dancing dat eventually saved the whole colony.....but my fav character aint mumble d emperor penguin, but actually ramon, d spunky lil penguin who speaks spanish.....ramon's also part of a group of 5 penguins who call themselves adelie amigos... well these lil fellas din care if u cant sing, all they care is abt being urself... n for once in his life mumble feels happy n excepted....n den d story goes on blah blah blah..... there aint much of a storyline 2 d movie... but it's the funny antics dat d animators hv put in2 d penguins......was a good laugh n i came out hving enjoyed myself....


after d movie, i went 2 do some xmas shopping 4 my parents.... managed 2 get soemthing 4 my mom, but not my dad...hmmm... it's just so hard 2 find good gifts 4 guys n men.....troublesome species they are....n i got myself a cool t-shirt... which when i went home i had 2 fight wit my mom n sis 2 keep it cos they wanted it....haiyo.....

i shall end dis long post now....

p.s.: i'm officially prepared n ready 2 go 4 xmas shopping marathonS.... XD

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it's time 2 dance....will you take my hand??

well AS exams ended 2day n yet we have to trudge to college tmrw to continue studying 4 A2.... dats bloody sucky.... but on a brighter note, i went 2 mid valley wit the guys and grace n we watched STEP UP.....awesome movie.... i totally loved it.... well since i aint good wit those narrative posts, i shall just stop here....


the strings of my soul start to play
as the music of my feelings are heard
the time is now
this is the moment
the music echoes through my bones
softly, gently if u would listen
the soul cries for love...
it is the time to dance
will you take my hand??
will you be the one
to take me through the night,
among the stars in the dark sky
to dance our lives away
together, forever....
the time is now;
will you take my hand???

my prayer for a while....

LORD MOVE, OR MOVE ME

(by FFH)

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I can't find the words to pray, I'm a little down today

Can You help me, Can You hold me?

I feel a million miles away, And I don't know what to say

Can You hear me anyway?

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What I need is for You to reach out Your hand

You have taught me no matter what You'd understand

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CHORUS:

Lord move in the way, that I've never seen before

Cause there's a mountain in the way and a lock on the door

I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore

So Lord move (move), or move me.

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I've looked every where to find a simple peace of mind

But, I can't find nothing on my own

So I gotta leave myself behind, take up this cross of mine

Give away everything I hold onto

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Lord I know the only way is through this

But Lord, I know I need You to help me do this

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CHORUS

Lord move in the way, that I've never seen before

Cause there's a mountain in the way and a lock on the door

I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore

So Lord move (move), or move me.

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Out of this place of complacency

To a place of fellowship with Thee

'Cause I am weak, but Lord, You are so strong

And You know it's been way too long

It's been way too long

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Lord move in the way, that I've never seen before

Cause there's a mountain in the way and a lock on the door

I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore So Lord move (move)...,

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CHORUS

walking in the rain

a wonderful feeling beckons
just standing in the rain
letting the rain just wash over me
all my troubles washed away
all my fears and insecurities; gone
just walking in the rain

jumping into puddles
and eating lollipops
a wonderful feeling i can't compare
it's been long since i felt so free
it's been ages since i felt light as a feather
oh what joy to be in the presence of nature

to feel the rain on my skin
to feel the wind mess my hair
and to hear
the beautiful sound of music
the rain makes
it makes me feel alive

i'm in college now...supposed to be studying for the last subject bio, but my mind has been feeling depressed since lunch was over..... i somehow blame it on the cabonara i ate.... as i was feeling all right before dat..... so anyways since tje library is a depressing place.... grace n i decided to go for a walk outside..... it was raining n i suddenly had this urge to run in the rain and jump into puddles..... i dunno wat made me do it.... but i just went ahead n did it..... n i loved it....i started laughing the moment i felt the rain on my skin.....it was just exhilarating... like as if i was high or something.... i guess i was knowing me...... but it felt wonderful...... my resolution after the bio paper: to run in the rain and get wet n love it...... but most of all, to be ALIVE!!!!! exams kinda make u feel dead......

You Are a Traveler Soul

You're a thrill seeker who loves to be active and on the moveYou love to wander: between places, ideas, and people.A good communicator, you're a nonconformist and interested in the world.You are an explorer, a good storyteller, and a true dreamer. Because you're always on the move, you can be a bit fickle.It's difficult for you to make personal commitments.Don't be so quick to ignore emotional issues and problems.You're much more intuitive and psychic than you think. Souls you are most compatible with: Retrospective Soul and Dreaming Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

sometimes i just wish.............

it's early in the morning
contrary to the fun of the past days
today started on a bad note
life is certainly funny ain't it??
just when u thought it couldn't get better
it takes a turn for worse
yes, indeed
life is the harshest teacher ever
but at the end of some days
it leaves me feeling as if
life may not be worth living at all
my fire grows dim
some days the rain and storm
they threaten to snuff it all out together
sometimes i just wish they did

sometimes i just wish that i was the one
solely in control of my destiny
not just a puppet with feelings
who is just part of the never-ending story: life

sometimes i just wish
that i could live life to the fullest
just the way i would love it to be
without any consequences
without any restrains
without being told what i should do
without being expected to perform

sometimes i just wish
i could give it my all without being afraid
afraid of the outcomes
afraid of life itself
but fear surrounds me like a shroud
threatening to envelope my very being

sometimes i just want to be
like the wild horses or the eagles
just running free
cruising with the wind
to fly high above it all
away from all the hurts
away from all barriers

why, oh why??
do we love binding ourselves
with these chains of life...
why, oh why??
do we allow ourselves
to be chained by the norms of society
why, oh why??
don't we just allow ourselves
to celebrate our individualism
our being different from one another
why, can't we just let
the person who hides inside
be exposed, and let live
why??

sometimes i just wish
that i didn't feel so alone
like a lonely cactus in a barren desert
but most of all,
sometimes i just wish
that life never at all
began for me......

i cant breathe
my mind is all woozy
stuck in this world of in between
nothing seems real anymore
reality is my imagination now
i feel like the flame is due
why? you may ask....
cos............................








arrgh!!!!!! i'm sick!!!!!!!








its so bloody irratating cos i've bio pract on thurs...... how i'm gonna get thru dat wit a running nose i hv no idea...... arrgh!!!!!!

it ends tonight

THE ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS

It Ends Tonight

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Your subtleties

They strangle me

I can't explain myself at all.

And all that wants

And all that needs

All I don't want to need at all.

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The walls start breathing

My minds unweaving

Maybe it's best you leave me alone.

A weight is lifted

On this evening

I give the final blow.

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When darkness turns to light,

It ends tonight

It ends tonight.

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A falling star

Least I fall alone.

I can't explain what you can't explain.

Your finding things that you didn't know

I look at you with such disdain

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The walls start breathing

My minds unweaving

Maybe it's best you leave me alone.

A weight is lifted

On this evening

I give the final blow.

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[Chorus]

When darkness turns to light

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

Just a little insight will make this right

It's too late to fight

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

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Now I'm on my own side

It's better than being on your side

It's my fault when your blind

It's better that I see it through your eyes

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All these thoughts locked inside

Now you're the first to know

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[Chorus x2]

i believe in miracles!!!!!!

~1 Cor 2:9~

Eye has not seen, ear has not heard, nor has it dawned on the mind what God has prepared for those who love him.

~Jeremiah 29:11~

For I know the plans I have for you; plans to save you and not to harm you, plans to give you a future and to give you hope.

where the eagle flies.....

the nest is bare
prickly against the tender flesh
of the young bird

meant to fly,
but the little one is afraid
fear weighs him down like a boulder
afraid if he takes the plunge
he may never fly again at all

it's a little late,
but she's not long overdue,
soon she will fly
once she breaks the chains that hold
her pretty wings captive

soon, not too far in the future,
the little one will fly,
high in the realm of the skies
where the eagles are the kings

look out to see the little one
flexing their wings
and riding the currents
braving all the obstacles

soaring high above them all, 

right where the eagle flies

rising I will touch the sky,
soon,
my time goes to arive,
when I rest in the given promise

elevándome tocaré el cielo,
pronto,
mi tiempo va a arive,
cuando descanso en la promesa dada

the golden post..........(",)

yess ppl this is the 50th post of my blog..... nothing exciting to blog abt except dat AS finals are starting next mon n dat currently i'm stuck on these songs.... beautiful.....

HINDER

"Lips Of An Angel"

Honey why are you calling me so late

It's kinda hard to talk right now

Honey why are you crying is everything okay

I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud

Well, my girls in the next room

Sometimes I wish she was you

I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name

It sounds so sweet

Coming from the lips of an angel

Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye

But girl you make it hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight

And yes I've dreamt of you too

And does he know you're talking to me

Will it start a fight

No I don't think she has a clue

Well my girls in the next room

Sometimes I wish she was you

I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name

It sounds so sweet

Coming from the lips of an angel

Hearing those wordsa it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye

But girl you make it hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name

It sounds so sweet

Coming from the lips of an angel

Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye

But girl you make it hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel (And I never wanna say goodbye)

But girl you make it so hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel

Honey why are you calling me so late

NEW FOUND GLORY

"Oxygen"

Constantly connected to the total unexpected

I'm a con, a stealer of hearts

I only keep this facade

To keep you on your toes

I'll take a glance while you sleep at night

Right from under your nose

So don't leave me

Don't leave, don't leave me here

I can't breathe without you

Don't leave, don't leave me here

I don't want to be without you

I don't want to live without you

I don't want to breathe without you (You're my oxygen)

It's hard to get rejected

By the one you most expected to be by your side

Your first thought being you should run and hide

I don't think you're to blame

I'll get you on your toes

I'll dream of you while I'm asleep at night

So nobody will know

So don't leave me

Don't leave, don't leave me here

I can't breathe without you

Don't leave, don't leave me here

I don't want to be without you

I don't want to live without you

I don't want to breathe without you (You're my oxygen)

Oxygen

With me, is where you belong

Right with me, is where you belong

Right here (Right here)

Right here (Don't leave me)

Don't leave, don't leave me here

I can't breathe without you

Don't leave, don't leave me

Cause I can't live without you(So don't leave)

Don't leave, don't leave me here

I can't breathe without you

Don't leave, don't leave me

I don't want to breathe without you

You're my oxygen

I don't want to breathe without you

You're my oxygen

Oxygen

Oxygen

Oxygen

Happy Birthday Mummy!!!!!

well today is mummy's b'day.... so b4 dis daddy, mel n i decided 2 suprise her... it was all a suprise.... the gift n the cake n everything..... rite now i cant upload the video yet, so here are some photos.....

Photo #1: when mummy 2st received the FedEx package

Photo #2: mummy still tryin 2 open the package
Photo #3: the gift box finally out of the packaging....for such a lil thing FedEx used such a big packet.....
Photo #4: mummy finally opened the box n smiling as she looked at the rosary....
Photo #5: the gift revealed....a genuine mother of pearl with silver sterling, hand crafted rosary with life time guarantee.... cool eh??? maybe not for everyone, but for mummy it's helluva lot....

remember one of my posts some time back abt a pair of merbuks nesting at my place??..... well on sunday(01/10/06) the eggs hatched..... n two little birdies were welcomed into the world.... so aftert waiting a couple of days 4 those little birdies 2 get used 2 the world around them, today i decided 2 document their early stages of life..... on of those little guys was kinda shy, so only one birdie posed 4 me with mummy bird.... can u see the little fella snuggled up next to its mummy???.... ain't he cute???? (at least i think its a he.....)

only time...

the line was cast,
and the fish has snagged the line,
it's time to reel it in,
only time will tell,
if it is a prize catch...

all endings are beginings...

that chapter is closed,
a new one has begun,
however
my friend don't fret,
what we used to be,
who you used to be to me,
no one will ever replace,
we tried,
but that path was not ours to take,
one day you will find
the dream that you will cherish,
it was not me, my friend
who was destined to be that dream.....

just a few words for you,
all endings are beginings,
though at that time
we may not realise it,
it's true;
look for your begining,
where we ended....

it's been a while

dear bloggy,


it's certainly been a while..... i'm sorry for neglecting u, but wit the shackles on i ain't got much choice.... please understand.... but don't worry, i've got a lot to say since i've been away....


yours truly,

on a religious note

Heart Of Worship - Hillsongs

when the music fades
all is stripped away
and i simply come
longing just to bring
something that's of worth
that will bless your heart

i bring you more than a song
for a song in itself
is not what you have required
you search much deeper within
through the way things appear
you're looking into my heart

chorus
I'm coming back to the heart of worship
and it's all about you
It's all about you, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the thing i've made it
when it's all about you
it's all about you, Jesus

King of endless worth
no one could express
how much you deserve
though i'm weak and poor
all i have is yours
every single breath

i bring you more than a song
for a song in itself
is not what you have required
you search much deeper within
through the way things appear
you're looking into my heart

chorus
I'm coming back to the heart of worship
and it's all about you
It's all about you, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the thing i've made it
when it's all about you
it's all about you, Jesus

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
and it's all about you
It's all about you, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the thing i've made it
when it's all about you
it's all about you, Jesus


Here I am to Worship - Hillsongs

Light of the world
You stepped down into darkness
Opened my eyes let me see
Beauty that made this heart adore You
Hope of a life spent with You

Here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that You're my God
You're all together lovely, altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me

King of all days oh so highly exalted
Glorious in heaven above
Humbly You came to this earth You created
All for love's sake became poor

Here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that You're my God
You're all together lovely, altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me

I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross

Call upon the name of the Lord and be saved
Call upon the name of the Lord and be saved

Here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that You're my God
You're all together lovely, altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me


these past few months have taken a toil on my faith.... n at a point i was just a zombie walking around, my actions were wihtout faith....i just couldn't sit and pray.....thanks god for the gift of music and songs, because through these i was able to contemplate on the events that had happened and my role in my faith....now, i'm back on track again.... these two songs really helped me....just wanted to share them with u guys.........

randomity

well for one, my house is becomeing a breeding ground for birds.... it's really becoming a regular affair now.....previously, we've had a few visitors who came only once a year like the doves n the merbuk......only one pair per year.....this year a pair of merbuk made their nest n their little birdies have flown away last month ....now in our porch lamps there are two pairs of merbuk nesting.....n they're totally cool abt me sticking my face in their nest... fyi, most birds would hv abandoned the nest, but not these birds....well hopefully this time i'll be able to get a few pics of the babies as well....

n this is a pic of my darling little cousin, damian driving my mom's peugeot.... not bad eh this little guy???.....he could even ask me while driving, "chechi, are u taking a picture of me driving godma's car???".....so cute la he....

PD rocked!!!

ain't good with me writing too many words, so i'll keep it short...... grace, daniel, michael, vignesh, tanuj, shankar n i had a blast in PD... it was so relaxing n everyone was just chilling out n hanging out wit one another..... it really felt like a family on holiday.....n everyone knows dat with dat combination, there's bound to be some hilarious moments....well in short, it was fun n wait for the pics to be posted.....can only get them when grace uploads n burns them for us....chiowz....

the fog.....

the fog is dense
as the shades of grey shift about
the shadows are alive
and they're after me
i run and hide
but i'm going around in cricles
i keep coming back to where i started
to the place where everthing begins
to the place of my life
home is where it once used to be
now its just a grey house
where sadness emmanates from
the four walls entraps the hurricane
while outside the walls the sun shines
deceiving all who look

help me
i don't want to drown
in the raging waters of the tempest
but my lips are sealed
that is the curse of the house i live in

hurricane of emotions

the hurricane thunders
the rain pours
the seas are at turmoil
as the winds of the house upsurge
the peace is dispersed
the pieces thrown to the farthest, remotest end
as it creates a wreckage far worse than any known…..

the eye of the storm has passed
but with its passing
the tempest has worsened
it shows no sign of letting up
how long will it last?
No one knows for certain….

But one thing is for sure
The hurricane of emotions
Leaves behind a catastrophe.....
hearts have been broken,
dreams have been shattered,
too marred to be mended
only time will tell
how deep the effects of the hurricane
and then maybe, it may be mended…

but for now,
while the hurricane still rages
I will look for comfort n shelter….
If I can find them,
Blessed be my soul……

the black hole - part 2

i am an empty space
a void, a vacuum,
feelingless and emotionless
all i think about is myself
i am a black hole
selfish and arrogant
it is my nature
the way i am meant to be
don't blame me
for i am what i am,
just a black hole
taking up just a dot of the galaxy........

remember the journey.....

"If you keep focusing on your goal in life, how are you going to remember what happened before that? If you think the highlight of your life is going to be accomplishing that goal, then you aren't going to remember the special moments that happened before. It's not about the destination; it's about the journey. Always remember the journey"

as those of u who are in CAL know....our trials n our AS is coming up soon....n i know everyone is busy studying and everything but i just wanted to say.... don't forget the journey.....we all know this is gonna be a stressful period for each and everyone.....so if we accidentally tread on each others toes.... just chill k.....life is all about the blunders we make......it's also abt how we turn those blunders into laughters.......cheers everyone!!!!


and all the best for the exams!!!!

to those who are from other programmes....the wish goes out to you guys as well.....


and dun forget to remember the journey......

give life a good hard punch in the stomach......

" when life knocks u down , get up and knock it straight back" By someone smart

well that's wat i got from allen's blog.....plagiarism??...yes indeed, but for a good cause.... well here's the case....a certain good friend of mine has been having a very bad day and the pst weekend was no better.....so this goes out to you, Grace.... get up and give life a good hard punch in the stomach and show that u can handle anything that comes ur way....also tell life not to mess wit u...cos ur strong n u have friends that help you through...and i'm always here to listen if u need a ear and a shoulder.....

weird.....just plain wierd.......

the weirdest day i've ever experienced in my whole life.....let's be frank k... no one just walks up to you and starts spilling theire whole life story to u....but that's exactly what happened today...i didn't go for bio tutorial today, so while waiting for raeyna and thivyah i was sitting in the garden wit ashy and vernie....and while we were chatting this african guy just walks up to us and starts asking me if i'm from cpu.... n then to cut the very, very long story short.....he then introed himself n asked for vernie's name only.....btw his name is louis....which was a shocker for me....then he parks himself on the bench next to us n starts talking abt his failed attempts of getting a gf....n apparently he was hitting on the chinese girls only *me looking at ashy n rolling my eyes*......goes to show how shallow he is.... n then he says, but the indians are fine... n that he gets along really well with them probably becaus their girls are more or less the same....*me rolling my eyes again*.....next he asks us if we have bf's....although we were all single and available.....ashy n i said we were taken.....n vernie said she doesnt hv a bf......n he keeps goin like 'for real'... i think ebery sentence he uses ends wit a 'for real'......at this point vernie has to go to mac center to bring punitha in....n this guy like asks ashy n me to hook him up with vernie, coz he likes her.....gosh....*me rolls eyes for god knows the hundredth time'.....n ashy covers up for vernie trying to save her saying 'actually she's in love wit someone n they just had their 1st kiss yest....bla bla bla.....she was trying to turn him off... but he was very persistent n when vernie came back, he actually asked for her no..... thank god vernie does not have a handphone...... but he still doesn't give up... now he wants her msn....so vernie has no choice n gives.....n then vernie freaks when she realises that its 4.20 n asks me how i'm goin home....so i say that i'm following her cos i'm staying over at ashy's house.....luckily vernie catches it n says ok......phew.....n this guy keeps on talking n talking n talking.......he also says we look all very americanised but we still act very asianish.....*louie at this point is getting very irratated*.....n i start telling him off....n then i ask him if getting a bf/gf is so important..... nhe gives some bullshit answer abt how women are sooooooooooo important.....gimme a break.....thank god time flew quickly enough n we were soon excusing ourselves as the transport had arrived......phew.....stupid guy......


to those who find it hard to understand i shall give u an oral version tmrw.....for real.....

love....

To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead.
Bertrand Russell


accordingly i'm supposed to be three parts dead already.....

my resolution....

NICK LACHEY

Resolution

Nothing but an empty page

Breathing in an open space

Captured by your moment's grace again

There's so much I left behind

Even more that waits in time

Everything's so undefined

I'm standing on the edge of my fear

And I see it clear

Here's my resolution

I'm letting go

All I need to learn is along this road

And I just want to be the best man I can be

Breathe, it's my resolution

Living life without her there

Finding soul is where I stand

And learning how to love again

And all I want is something real

That I can feel

Here's my resolution

I'm letting go

All I need to learn is along this road

And I just wanna be the best man I can be

'Cause here's my resolutionI'm letting go

All I need to learn is along this road

And I just wanna be the best man I can be

Breathe, it's my resolution

My resolution

(Ooh oh oh)

a myriad of feelings
goin through my heart and soul
i'm a bit confused
i don't know what to do
what to decide....
i'm torn in between my own feelings....
can i trust you??
i need to know that first
before anything else...
can i lean on you??
depend on you when i am weak??
i need to know...
i'm afraid to tread on the thin ice...
will you help me fly??
or will you bring me down??
or will we fly together??....

just felt like posting the song...it is a step forward i am taking... that's all i have to say....there are a lot of blank spaces in between... but only those who know will be able to read between the lines...

the irony in my life

i·ro·ny =
~ The use of words to express something different from and often opposite to their literal meaning.
~ An expression or utterance marked by a deliberate contrast between apparent and intended meaning.
~ A literary style employing such contrasts for humorous or rhetorical effect.


a simple word, but certainly much more than that.....i certainly don't know what to make out of it....i was just sittting down and contemplating.....isn't life ironic??....

what's ur problem man?!?!

hey big guy up in the sky;
yeah you
i'm talking to you,
just wanted to ask
what's your problem man??!!
why the hell are you messing my life up....
owwh i forgot, your in heaven,
so why in all the whole universe
did you choose my life to play with....
why didn't you choose someone else??
why don't you toy with someone else's feelings??
why me??
when there is over a billion of people in this world....
i just want to be left alone...
please don't mess my life up....
i think it certainly was tangled up enough
before you decided to do anything....
if you're trying to unravel the knots of my complicated life,
you're actually making them worse....
please, i beg of thee....
leave me alone....
alone with my messed up life
to unravel them on my own.....
please....

the black hole

i am a black hole
all that gravitates towards me
i grab...
i am greedy
nothing escapes me....

i take more than i give
i want more and more
what i have never seems to be enough
more and more is all i want
i am a black hole

a dead star in space
darkness surroundsme
i'm engulfed in my greed
i am a black hole.....

i want to fly....

i wonder.....since we are always weighed down by so much of baggage....will we ever be able to break free....i want to fly....i'm tired of being on the ground....i yearn for the rush of wind ruffling my hair....i want to be part of the air...but it seems only to be the dreams of a dreamer....will i ever be able to soar through the skies like the mighty eagle??...it may not be possible....but a dreamer never stops dreaming...the dreamer always hopes that the dreams may one day be a reality....i want to fly...i want to break free....i want to be released of all the baggage.....but since a dream shall only be a dream dreamed by the dreamer.....i will wait for the arival of that day....till then there's a song that fits the occasion....

FLIPSYDE - SOMEDAY

[Chorus]

Someday we gonna rise up on that wind you know

Someday we gonna dance with those lions

Someday we gonna break free from these chains and keep on flyin'

[Verse 1]

They tellin' me it's all good just wait

You know you're gonna be there someday

Sippin' on Jim Beam ok

Gotta get these things one day

Till then do another line you know

Searching for that other high

Stop or I gotta steal then steal

Kill or I'm gonna be killed

I got a sack in my pocket

Conscious yellin' drop it

You know we're gonna lose it someday

And we tryin' to hold it all together but the devil is too clever so

I'm gonna die you gonna die we gonna die

Someday one day I said

[Chorus]

Someday we gonna rise up on the wind you know

Someday we gonna dance with those lions

Someday we gonna break free from these chains and keep on flyin'

[Verse 2]

Try to lie but it ain't me Ain't me

Try to look but I can't see

Can't stop right now cause I'm too far and

I can't keep goin' cause it's too hard

In the day in the night it's the same thing

On the field on the block it's the same game

On the real if you stop then it's no pain

but if you can't feel pain then it's no gain

Rearrange and you change and it's all bad

and you try to maintain but you fall back

And you crawl and you slip and you slide down

Wanna make it to the top better start now

So I hold my soul and I die hard

All alone in the night in the graveyard

Someday one day I'm gonna be free

and they won't try to kill me for being me

Hey someday

[Chorus]

Someday we gonna rise up on that wind you know

Someday we gonna dance with those lions

Someday we gonna break free from these chains and keep on flyin'

If you know how this is

Gonna see it's not that easy

Don't stop get it till it's done

From where you are or have begun

I said keep on try a little harder to see everything you need to be

Believe in your dreams

That you see when you're asleep

[Chorus]

Someday we gonna rise up on that wind you know

Someday we gonna dance with those lions

Someday we gonna break free from these chains and keep on flyin'

just my random thoughts.....

left alone, boredom envelopes me
my exsistance seems to be engulfed in gloom
a rare experience,
which as days go by
seems to occur more often....

time seems to fly by,
on wings of supersonic speed;
as each day ends
it seems that i acomplish less...
this certainly shall be my undoing...

random thoughts fly by me...
as i contemplate on
my insignificant existance in this world..
why? sometimes i wonder...
do things turn out the way they do...
to me it seems to be
the more i expect out of life...
the less i seem to receive..

life is simple, so they say
it is us humans who make it complicated
yet i have to question...
how do we complicate life,
when fate deals us uncomprehensible hands?
the twists in our lives,
who decides what should or shouldn't be?

why??
it is a question i ask,
but no one seems to have the answers
that i seek....
enlighten me...
i wish to know...
are we merely puppets on a string??..
or are we pawns in a game???
or are we in control of our own desitiny??..

Happy Birthday, Hamilton!!

i was alone and feeling bored so i decided 2 write a poem 4 the birthday boy!!

today you are to embark
on a new phase of your journey in life.....
may God's blessings be upon you
as you take each step...
may the year ahead
bring you much joy, hapiness and love
to last a lifetime through
but most of all...
may u enjoy all that u do
and succeed in all your undertakings....

God Bless and Happy Birthday!!!!

what can i do??

will u ever take notice of me??...
i wonder...
my heart in its silence adores you,
but i am too timid,
afraid that i might be rejected;
i've been broken many times,
i know the pain
yet i can't keep myself from falling,
falling for you....

i know your heart belongs to another,
but i still yearn to know,
will i ever have the chance,
chance to be more than ur friend;
but once again i have to admit,
i am crippled by my fear....

i am afraid
if i let you know
you will move away,
at least in my silence
i have you still as my friend;
at least i know i still can laugh and joke with you,
my love for you is like poison,
but at the same time you are my cure....
what can i do??...

love is a many splendored thing,
yet it is also the torment for the soul...
i must confess,
i am lost in the abyss of my feelings,
i am stuck in a rut;
for i am afraid to move forward,
and yet, i am unable to reverse my steps,
the game of love is complicated indeed...

i am lost
here in the reverie of my thoughts;
i don't know what to do....
for i am so in love with you...

dedicated to hamster...

this post is solely dedicated to hamster a.k.a miss ng lai yen....as we know it....yen has been nicknamed hamster 4 quite sometime now.....well 2day during maths class mr.karamjeet came 2 know abt it.....this is the series of events that led 2 the revelation of lai yen's nickname.....

karam: anyboy got problems wit the hw yesterday??
grace: yes...ex 5.....i cannot get the answer...
yen: i got la....can get the answer....
raeyna: oww hamster got the answer....
haseena: no...mintster got the answer....
(everybody laughing)...
karam: is it hamster or mintster?.. did i hear correctly.....grace, when did u change ur name to 'grace hamster'??....
(more uprorious laughter)
grace: no la....not me....hamster is lai yen....
karam: oww lai yen...hamster is ur nickname is it? *smiling the evil smile*
yen:no...no..no....*face as red as a tomato*
(karam continues smiling n after everyone has settled down, says...)
karam: so the calculator will decide what is the topic of ur assignment....

well that was the highlights of today....

sleepiness.....

i have no idea wat happened 2 me today....but i was feeling damn sleepy the whole day.....haiz....n since i actually managed to sleep off during the last 15 minutes of lan class.....miss ng lai yen decided to take a pic of me sleeping......

well at least i know i dun look bad while i'm sleeping.....i actually look damn peaceful.....hehehe.... btw LT2 is a nice place 2 sleep.....

wits or mates???.....

"our of every thousand men
one set of ribs will hide a pirates heart
and out of every thousand pirates
there might be a single rouge
with wits sharp enough or mates trusty enough

you'll need your skill and your wits
and your one true friend to sail past every hazard
and come safely home at last...."

in the light of the soon to be released 'pirates of the carribean 2: dead man's chest', i feel that it certainly is a good opportunity to look around us and see what it was that has brought us here....where ever we are now...wits or our mates???.....it's different for everyone.....think about it....

chemical equilibrium....

for these past few days, grace and i have been feeling very frustrated with boys.....not at the whole species, but in particular just a few.....so in the midst of our frustration, we came up with a new theory....it's not new actually... we just borrowed it from one of our chemistry theories....so here goes....

This is the overall equation,

Boys are cute boys are dumb

According to the forward reaction, as boys become dumber, they get less cute…. Since it is a reversible reaction, when there is too much of products and the amount reactants decrease. Therefore, the reverse reaction occurs so that the system will can try to achieve equilibrium. So that’s when they guys start getting cute again and smarter. Dynamic equilibrium would be when both the forward reaction and the reverse reactions are equal.

So guys, that means, u have to be equally dumb and cute at the same time……by saying dumb, we do not mean ur mental capabilities, but instead ur emotional capabilities…..we know that guys will never be able to be absolutely in touch with their emotional side, so that’s y u need to be at equilibrium….both cute and dumb at the same time….

i'm only human

I have been down,
I have been up,
journeying this rollercoaster of life.

sometimes I feel like giving up,
but always my conscience tells me,
"Go on, the race is not over yet",
and once again I pick myself up
to continue where I left off....

I am a wounded soldier on this battleground,
my scars are numerous,
they remind me of lessons learnt,
and roads to be avoided in life...

I am not perfect,
sometimes I am the cause of hurt,
other times the cure;
I’ll do my best to alleviate your pain,
for I am your friend
on whom you can depend on....

I have my shortcomings,
they are plentiful,
but as life goes on I learn,
help me learn, my friends,
for I am only one,
but not alone...

whatever I may do,
pleasing or not
please forgive me,
for I’m only human,
I have much to learn on this road that I travel.....

Boulevard of Broken Dreams

dont know why but lately this song has been on my mind...CHEERS!!!

Boulevard of Broken Dreams

I walk a lonely road
The only one I that have ever known
Don't know were it goes
But its home and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone I walk alone

I walk alone I walk alone

My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I'll walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And were I walk alone

Read between the lines of what's
Fucked up and every things all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone

My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I'll walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah I walk alone I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I'll walk alone!

if u don't want to change ur goals.....change ur work ethics....

well its been a while since i've posted anything.....but actually i dont feel like blogging much these days.....guess i must be having a writer's block......hehehe....

so now i'm back in coll, been back since tuesday actually.....it feels good to back and actiive....been hibernating too much during the hols....so now i'm awake again.....but it also has been a lil' depressing getting back since all the papers being handed back to us plus all the lessons have started again.....other than that life in coll is pretty much the same....

well yesterday in maths class karam told us to buck up....said he our results were horrendous n that we would never do well if we keep up the way we are.......

if u dont want to change ur goals, change ur work ethics......if
u dont want to
change ur work ethics then change ur goal!! u will never be
able to do medicine
with results like these!!!!

so thats it..... its time to change the work ethics!!!!

NUFF SAID'

hasta manana.....todavía vivo......hacer el mejor de vida ......

drip, drip, drip.....
goes the hourglass of my life,
of time that has been spent and time left,
none of us can behold,
the hold of time is beyond our grasp....

tick tock, tick tock.....
the clock goes,
my life to this point has it been wisely spent?
my earthly understanding can just ponder,
as my earthly being reflects,
my soul portrays what the mind of the eye sees....

so far,
my failures and shortcomings are plentiful,
and the things done right few,
but as time goes i can make up,
get up and repair the mistakes,
for as long as there is breath,
so long does hope abide,
and where there is hope,
therein reigns life.....

so up to tomorrow,
i still live,
to make the best out of life......

tan hasta manana,
todavía vivo,
hacer el mejor de vida........

hasta manana.....todavía vivo......hacer el mejor de vida ......

drip, drip, drip.....
goes the hourglass of my life,
of time that has been spent and time left,
none of us can behold,
the hold of time is beyond our grasp....

tick tock, tick tock.....
the clock goes,
my life to this point has it been wisely spent?
my earthly understanding can just ponder,
as my earthly being reflects,
my soul portrays what the mind of the eye sees....

so far,
my failures and shortcomings are plentiful,
and the things done right few,
but as time goes i can make up,
get up and repair the mistakes,
for as long as there is breath,
so long does hope abide,
and where there is hope,
therein reigns life.....

so up to tomorrow,
i still live,
to make the best out of life......

tan hasta manana,
todavía vivo,
hacer el mejor de vida........

results of boredom...........

Why do people run from Louisa?

You have lasers for eyes

'Why" do people run from you?' at QuizGalaxy.com

holidays......

...i'm bored.....holidays have started but as i've mentioned i'm bored.....the lack of the usual activities make life seem so dull.....believe it or not i am actually missing college and our rowdy class PM8....hard 2 believe but true.....all of a sudden its too quiet and boring.....haizzz.....well 2dae went 2 klcc wit mom.....that at least was a ray of sunshine in this otherwise gloomy world of my exsistance....it was kinda packed being a weekday.....but it was nice.....i had a headache tho....so many nice things so lil cash.....T.T.....well just gotta suck it up tho....in the end mom bought 4 herself a couple of shirts n a jeans...but i din get any.....well will be goin 2 pyramid somewhere next week n hopefully can buy some stuff there......i'm bored again now.......

i'm back!!!!

how nice after 1 week of sleepless nights and heartaches.....the exams are over....not totally but for the time being.....world cup fever is on as well.....woohooo!!!!!!!!......germany rocks!!!!.....

well exams were over by friday, n the gals some of us headed over 2 pyramid 2 spend some time.....it was fun.....lai yen, grace n i were in one car n we plotted 2 get mr. karam 2 come wit us witout the rest as in rae, haseena, dhal and thivya knowing.....hahaha......rae's expression was priceless when she saw karam walk into kenny rogers......hehehe.....after lunch we went for bowling.....for a rookie i did wat was expected of me......that is i kept sending my ball into the drain instead of the pins......the situation looked so hopeless that karam actually said that it was harder to hit nothing at all rather than 2 hit something.....and that no one could possibly do worse than i did.....but finally i managed to hit some pins......not too bad.......thank god i managed 2 save face a lil...... but still nothing beats rae.....she actually sent the ball towards us instead of the pins.......mr karam just had 2 stiffle a laugh and shake his head in desperation.......well grace won 1st, followed by thivya n lai yen.......no one gets a prize 4 guessing who got the last place......ME!!!!!!......well that was all for friday.....nothing interesting really happened after that.......


yesterday had 2 attend a weeding so the whole day was spent out of the house......nothing so interesting.....i woke up to watch the match between argentina n ivory coast.....that was something good......the argentinian defense was superb n the goals by crespo n saviola were so nice......the ball was in the possesion of ivory cost most of the time but the argentinians were quick 2 take advantage.....thats how they managed 2 score......it was a good match.....cheers!!!!!

pool and exams.......

as the title says......exams are on monday.....not very far away, in fact it's just TWO days away.....and what was i doin yesterday???.......playing pool woth vignesh.....well at least i won 2 games....hehehe.....nothing much 2 say actually....just wanted 2 brag a bit.....well overall he still won....the score was 4-2.......not that great but something at least.....i doubt i shall be posting anything while the exams are on....so here's 2 a long time without some crappings from an idiot....

adios y hasta luego!!!

awards are great....not actually.............

well yesterday i had 2 go to the letchumanan hall for that coastal indian award......first of all it started off late, becos the VIP samyvellu came so late.....but that was besides the point........for the four hours of my time wasted there......they onli gave me RM150, a rose and a cert....thats all!!!!!!

well the funpart was meeting up again wit all the ex-convent students especially laavanya, malani n latisha.......sobanah looks so nice now.....like a model n malani as well......anywayz here are some pics that i took wit lavee and latisha.....

lavee and i....isn't she gorgeous!!!!.....haizz so sad, she gonna go 2 france at the end of this year to do engineering......i bet she'll be a hit among the frenchmen!!!!!

these are the cookies lavee made......butter chocolate chip cookies......we were feasting on them while the ceremony was goin on......hehehe....

latisha and i......

lavee eating the cookie.....she was the cookie darling yesterday....not cookie monster but cookie darling!!!!

the tale of the guppy fish

recently my mom's been kinda obsessed wit rearing some fishies......we had an old unused fish bowl n when she saw it she wanted 2 make use of it.....so that's how it started, the whole facade of the fishes......we bought abt 10 of those guppy fishes in the 1st round....all of them survived witout dying 4 at least 2 days.....then those little things started dying....one by one, everyday until there was only 2 left.......well these 2 guys survived 4 2 weeks witout dying......n then 1 more fellla died, so one man down there was another left......haizz......


so me mom, being the compassionate person she is felt so sorry 4 the lil guy that she bought 2 more guppy's 2 keep him company.......well history repeated itself....but the strange thing is, the new additions died first......i have no idea wat this lil guy would have done to his fellow mates to make them die like dat.......anywayz, after the other 2 fishes died this guy was all alone......it kinda was like survivor..... u know the whole 'outwit, outplay, outlast' thingy......well this guy won the survivor game of the fish bowl......finally he died on sunday morning.....hahaha.....after 2 batches of guppy fishes the last has finally died......

well now i hope my mom realises that the best pet 2 get n keep is a doggie.......*hint hint*

i failed!!!.......again

how hard can it be to pass a test???.....yes ppl.... once again i failed my chemistry test....i cant really blame anyone but myself coz i studied last minute.....so no use complaining.....but really i had 2 silly mistakes which caused me the fail.....otherwise i would have passed.....haizzz....well the semester exams are in 10 days, 240 hours, 14400 minutes away and counting.......it is certainly time 2 sit down and start studying seriously.....although i will not do well.....the least i could do is to pass all my tests.....i know i can definitely pass my thinking skills......its bio, chem and maths which i have 2 worry about.....well thats all for now.....