sometimes i just wish.............

it's early in the morning
contrary to the fun of the past days
today started on a bad note
life is certainly funny ain't it??
just when u thought it couldn't get better
it takes a turn for worse
yes, indeed
life is the harshest teacher ever
but at the end of some days
it leaves me feeling as if
life may not be worth living at all
my fire grows dim
some days the rain and storm
they threaten to snuff it all out together
sometimes i just wish they did

sometimes i just wish that i was the one
solely in control of my destiny
not just a puppet with feelings
who is just part of the never-ending story: life

sometimes i just wish
that i could live life to the fullest
just the way i would love it to be
without any consequences
without any restrains
without being told what i should do
without being expected to perform

sometimes i just wish
i could give it my all without being afraid
afraid of the outcomes
afraid of life itself
but fear surrounds me like a shroud
threatening to envelope my very being

sometimes i just want to be
like the wild horses or the eagles
just running free
cruising with the wind
to fly high above it all
away from all the hurts
away from all barriers

why, oh why??
do we love binding ourselves
with these chains of life...
why, oh why??
do we allow ourselves
to be chained by the norms of society
why, oh why??
don't we just allow ourselves
to celebrate our individualism
our being different from one another
why, can't we just let
the person who hides inside
be exposed, and let live
why??

sometimes i just wish
that i didn't feel so alone
like a lonely cactus in a barren desert
but most of all,
sometimes i just wish
that life never at all
began for me......