is that too much to ask for?

autumn leaves falling all around me
like the tears that fall from my heart
the cold of winter is felt early
as a winter settles in on my heart.

if listening to your heart
is the right way of living;
why is the world trying to kill me?
i just ask that i be understood
if that is so hard to do
how can i depend on those around me now?
the ones that are supposed to be closest to me..

is it so hard to listen to my reasoning?
why does gender difference make such a difference?
i can live my life without a man
i can take care of myself
i dont need a perfect candidate
is that too much to ask for?