the irony in my life

i·ro·ny =
~ The use of words to express something different from and often opposite to their literal meaning.
~ An expression or utterance marked by a deliberate contrast between apparent and intended meaning.
~ A literary style employing such contrasts for humorous or rhetorical effect.


a simple word, but certainly much more than that.....i certainly don't know what to make out of it....i was just sittting down and contemplating.....isn't life ironic??....

what's ur problem man?!?!

hey big guy up in the sky;
yeah you
i'm talking to you,
just wanted to ask
what's your problem man??!!
why the hell are you messing my life up....
owwh i forgot, your in heaven,
so why in all the whole universe
did you choose my life to play with....
why didn't you choose someone else??
why don't you toy with someone else's feelings??
why me??
when there is over a billion of people in this world....
i just want to be left alone...
please don't mess my life up....
i think it certainly was tangled up enough
before you decided to do anything....
if you're trying to unravel the knots of my complicated life,
you're actually making them worse....
please, i beg of thee....
leave me alone....
alone with my messed up life
to unravel them on my own.....
please....

the black hole

i am a black hole
all that gravitates towards me
i grab...
i am greedy
nothing escapes me....

i take more than i give
i want more and more
what i have never seems to be enough
more and more is all i want
i am a black hole

a dead star in space
darkness surroundsme
i'm engulfed in my greed
i am a black hole.....

i want to fly....

i wonder.....since we are always weighed down by so much of baggage....will we ever be able to break free....i want to fly....i'm tired of being on the ground....i yearn for the rush of wind ruffling my hair....i want to be part of the air...but it seems only to be the dreams of a dreamer....will i ever be able to soar through the skies like the mighty eagle??...it may not be possible....but a dreamer never stops dreaming...the dreamer always hopes that the dreams may one day be a reality....i want to fly...i want to break free....i want to be released of all the baggage.....but since a dream shall only be a dream dreamed by the dreamer.....i will wait for the arival of that day....till then there's a song that fits the occasion....

FLIPSYDE - SOMEDAY

[Chorus]

Someday we gonna rise up on that wind you know

Someday we gonna dance with those lions

Someday we gonna break free from these chains and keep on flyin'

[Verse 1]

They tellin' me it's all good just wait

You know you're gonna be there someday

Sippin' on Jim Beam ok

Gotta get these things one day

Till then do another line you know

Searching for that other high

Stop or I gotta steal then steal

Kill or I'm gonna be killed

I got a sack in my pocket

Conscious yellin' drop it

You know we're gonna lose it someday

And we tryin' to hold it all together but the devil is too clever so

I'm gonna die you gonna die we gonna die

Someday one day I said

[Chorus]

Someday we gonna rise up on the wind you know

Someday we gonna dance with those lions

Someday we gonna break free from these chains and keep on flyin'

[Verse 2]

Try to lie but it ain't me Ain't me

Try to look but I can't see

Can't stop right now cause I'm too far and

I can't keep goin' cause it's too hard

In the day in the night it's the same thing

On the field on the block it's the same game

On the real if you stop then it's no pain

but if you can't feel pain then it's no gain

Rearrange and you change and it's all bad

and you try to maintain but you fall back

And you crawl and you slip and you slide down

Wanna make it to the top better start now

So I hold my soul and I die hard

All alone in the night in the graveyard

Someday one day I'm gonna be free

and they won't try to kill me for being me

Hey someday

[Chorus]

Someday we gonna rise up on that wind you know

Someday we gonna dance with those lions

Someday we gonna break free from these chains and keep on flyin'

If you know how this is

Gonna see it's not that easy

Don't stop get it till it's done

From where you are or have begun

I said keep on try a little harder to see everything you need to be

Believe in your dreams

That you see when you're asleep

[Chorus]

Someday we gonna rise up on that wind you know

Someday we gonna dance with those lions

Someday we gonna break free from these chains and keep on flyin'

just my random thoughts.....

left alone, boredom envelopes me
my exsistance seems to be engulfed in gloom
a rare experience,
which as days go by
seems to occur more often....

time seems to fly by,
on wings of supersonic speed;
as each day ends
it seems that i acomplish less...
this certainly shall be my undoing...

random thoughts fly by me...
as i contemplate on
my insignificant existance in this world..
why? sometimes i wonder...
do things turn out the way they do...
to me it seems to be
the more i expect out of life...
the less i seem to receive..

life is simple, so they say
it is us humans who make it complicated
yet i have to question...
how do we complicate life,
when fate deals us uncomprehensible hands?
the twists in our lives,
who decides what should or shouldn't be?

why??
it is a question i ask,
but no one seems to have the answers
that i seek....
enlighten me...
i wish to know...
are we merely puppets on a string??..
or are we pawns in a game???
or are we in control of our own desitiny??..

Happy Birthday, Hamilton!!

i was alone and feeling bored so i decided 2 write a poem 4 the birthday boy!!

today you are to embark
on a new phase of your journey in life.....
may God's blessings be upon you
as you take each step...
may the year ahead
bring you much joy, hapiness and love
to last a lifetime through
but most of all...
may u enjoy all that u do
and succeed in all your undertakings....

God Bless and Happy Birthday!!!!

what can i do??

will u ever take notice of me??...
i wonder...
my heart in its silence adores you,
but i am too timid,
afraid that i might be rejected;
i've been broken many times,
i know the pain
yet i can't keep myself from falling,
falling for you....

i know your heart belongs to another,
but i still yearn to know,
will i ever have the chance,
chance to be more than ur friend;
but once again i have to admit,
i am crippled by my fear....

i am afraid
if i let you know
you will move away,
at least in my silence
i have you still as my friend;
at least i know i still can laugh and joke with you,
my love for you is like poison,
but at the same time you are my cure....
what can i do??...

love is a many splendored thing,
yet it is also the torment for the soul...
i must confess,
i am lost in the abyss of my feelings,
i am stuck in a rut;
for i am afraid to move forward,
and yet, i am unable to reverse my steps,
the game of love is complicated indeed...

i am lost
here in the reverie of my thoughts;
i don't know what to do....
for i am so in love with you...

dedicated to hamster...

this post is solely dedicated to hamster a.k.a miss ng lai yen....as we know it....yen has been nicknamed hamster 4 quite sometime now.....well 2day during maths class mr.karamjeet came 2 know abt it.....this is the series of events that led 2 the revelation of lai yen's nickname.....

karam: anyboy got problems wit the hw yesterday??
grace: yes...ex 5.....i cannot get the answer...
yen: i got la....can get the answer....
raeyna: oww hamster got the answer....
haseena: no...mintster got the answer....
(everybody laughing)...
karam: is it hamster or mintster?.. did i hear correctly.....grace, when did u change ur name to 'grace hamster'??....
(more uprorious laughter)
grace: no la....not me....hamster is lai yen....
karam: oww lai yen...hamster is ur nickname is it? *smiling the evil smile*
yen:no...no..no....*face as red as a tomato*
(karam continues smiling n after everyone has settled down, says...)
karam: so the calculator will decide what is the topic of ur assignment....

well that was the highlights of today....

sleepiness.....

i have no idea wat happened 2 me today....but i was feeling damn sleepy the whole day.....haiz....n since i actually managed to sleep off during the last 15 minutes of lan class.....miss ng lai yen decided to take a pic of me sleeping......

well at least i know i dun look bad while i'm sleeping.....i actually look damn peaceful.....hehehe.... btw LT2 is a nice place 2 sleep.....

wits or mates???.....

"our of every thousand men
one set of ribs will hide a pirates heart
and out of every thousand pirates
there might be a single rouge
with wits sharp enough or mates trusty enough

you'll need your skill and your wits
and your one true friend to sail past every hazard
and come safely home at last...."

in the light of the soon to be released 'pirates of the carribean 2: dead man's chest', i feel that it certainly is a good opportunity to look around us and see what it was that has brought us here....where ever we are now...wits or our mates???.....it's different for everyone.....think about it....

chemical equilibrium....

for these past few days, grace and i have been feeling very frustrated with boys.....not at the whole species, but in particular just a few.....so in the midst of our frustration, we came up with a new theory....it's not new actually... we just borrowed it from one of our chemistry theories....so here goes....

This is the overall equation,

Boys are cute boys are dumb

According to the forward reaction, as boys become dumber, they get less cute…. Since it is a reversible reaction, when there is too much of products and the amount reactants decrease. Therefore, the reverse reaction occurs so that the system will can try to achieve equilibrium. So that’s when they guys start getting cute again and smarter. Dynamic equilibrium would be when both the forward reaction and the reverse reactions are equal.

So guys, that means, u have to be equally dumb and cute at the same time……by saying dumb, we do not mean ur mental capabilities, but instead ur emotional capabilities…..we know that guys will never be able to be absolutely in touch with their emotional side, so that’s y u need to be at equilibrium….both cute and dumb at the same time….

i'm only human

I have been down,
I have been up,
journeying this rollercoaster of life.

sometimes I feel like giving up,
but always my conscience tells me,
"Go on, the race is not over yet",
and once again I pick myself up
to continue where I left off....

I am a wounded soldier on this battleground,
my scars are numerous,
they remind me of lessons learnt,
and roads to be avoided in life...

I am not perfect,
sometimes I am the cause of hurt,
other times the cure;
I’ll do my best to alleviate your pain,
for I am your friend
on whom you can depend on....

I have my shortcomings,
they are plentiful,
but as life goes on I learn,
help me learn, my friends,
for I am only one,
but not alone...

whatever I may do,
pleasing or not
please forgive me,
for I’m only human,
I have much to learn on this road that I travel.....

Boulevard of Broken Dreams

dont know why but lately this song has been on my mind...CHEERS!!!

Boulevard of Broken Dreams

I walk a lonely road
The only one I that have ever known
Don't know were it goes
But its home and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone I walk alone

I walk alone I walk alone

My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I'll walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And were I walk alone

Read between the lines of what's
Fucked up and every things all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone

My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I'll walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah I walk alone I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I'll walk alone!