i wont be home for christmas by blink 182

(Deck the halls with boughs of holly fa-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la)
(Tis the season to be jolly fa-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la)

Outside the carolers start to sing
I can't describe the joy they bring
Cause joy is something they don't bring me

My girlfriend is by my side
From the roof are hanging sickles of ice
Their whiny voices get irritating
It's Christmas time again

So I stand with a dead smile on my face
Wondering how much of my time they'll waste
Oh God I hate these Satan's helpers

And then I guess I must have snapped
Because I grabbed a baseball bat
And made them all run for shelter

It's Christmas time again
It's time to be nice to the people you can't stand all year
I'm growing tired of all this Christmas cheer
You people scare me
Please stay away from my home
If you don't wanna get beat down
Just leave the presents and then leave me alone.

Well I guess it's not cool to freak on Christmas Eve
Cause the cops came and arrested me
They had an unfair advantage

And even though the jail didn't have a tree
Christmas came a night early
Causes a guy named Bubba unwrapped my package (hot damn)

It's Christmas time again
It's time to be nice to the people you can't stand all year
I'm growing tired of all this Christmas cheer
You people scare me
Please stay away from my home
If you don't wanna get beat down
Just leave the presents and then leave me alone

I won't be home
I won't be home for Christmas
I won't be home
I won't be home for Christmas (please post my bail)
I won't be home
I won't be home for Christmas (please post my bail)
I won't be home
I won't be home for Christmas (please post my bail)
I won't be home
I won't be home for Christmas (please post my bail)
I won't be home



tho my sentiments aren't exactly the same as blink 182.... it still boils down to the same thing..... i wont be home for christmas dis year.... little did i know when i downloaded this song last year that i would be in this position... welll just have to deal wit it i guess....
I won't be home for Christmas

dead man (carry me) - jars of clay

January One, I got a lot of things on my mind
I'm looking at my body through a new spy satellite
I try to lift a finger but I don't think I can make a call
So tell me if I move 'cause I don't feel anything at all

So carry me
I'm just a dead man
Lying on the carpet
Can't find a heartbeat
Make me breathe
I wanna be a new man
Tired of the old one
Out with the old plan

I woke up from a dream about an empty funeral
But it's better than a party full of people I don't really know
Well, they've got hearts to break and burn, dirty hands to feel the earth
There's something in my veins but I can't seem to make it work
Won't work

So carry me
I'm just a dead man
Lying on the carpet
Can't find a heartbeat
Make me breathe
I wanna be a new man
Tired of the old one
Out with the old plan

Can you find a beat?
Inside of me?
Any pulse, getting worse
Any pulse, getting worse
Inside of me
In front of me

Carry me
I'm just a dead man
Lying on the carpet
Can't find a heartbeat
Make me breathe
I wanna be a new man
Tired of the old one
Out with the old plan

Carry me
I'm just a dead man
Lying on the carpet
Can't find a heartbeat
Make me breathe
I wanna be a new man
Tired of the old one
Out with the old plan

is that too much to ask for?

autumn leaves falling all around me
like the tears that fall from my heart
the cold of winter is felt early
as a winter settles in on my heart.

if listening to your heart
is the right way of living;
why is the world trying to kill me?
i just ask that i be understood
if that is so hard to do
how can i depend on those around me now?
the ones that are supposed to be closest to me..

is it so hard to listen to my reasoning?
why does gender difference make such a difference?
i can live my life without a man
i can take care of myself
i dont need a perfect candidate
is that too much to ask for?

hailing from romania

hey ya'll.. how r u guys doin? things r pretty fine here, except for a few hiccups on d way.. anyhows here are some pics for u guys to see.. will give a full update l8er on, my laptop is running low on juice.

a romantic's dream

notes on paper, music in the air,
a song of love played by violin strings,
a lover's concerto heard in the moonlit night,
as the dream of the romantic takes shape and flies into the night

and soon the violin meets the piano,
the lover, solo no more,
meets his match,
as their music combine,
so their hearts entwine,
lost to the rapture of their duet,
ethereal figures in the night
as their hearts are soar to heaven's height.

emoness....

ok ppl, brace urselfs for a bit of ranting.... yeah well i've been goin thru an emo rollercoaster... d upside being dat i'm excited abt leaving... d downside, i'm sad abt leaving... i mean, i'm excited dat i'm finally gonna be able to do my own thing in my own way without having to really listen to d dictation of others, but on d other hand i'm terrified dat i'm gonna fail miserably... all my life, i could say i've been pretty much pampered, not in a sense that i get everything i want when i want it, but in the way that a whole lot of things were done for me.. i'm not born wit a silver spoon in my mouth, but more like i've been chauffered everywhere. i hardly ever took public transport on my own. i've nvr gone anywhere on my own actually. i've always had somebody wit me. most of all wat worries me is dat i'm pretty green on d street. i'm not really a street-wise person. i've always been d baby of d family, heck, not only to family, but to d ppl in church also. where i've spent most of my time besides at home. there are so many things at d back of my mind. like, how long r they gonna remember me after i go? i can only make trips back home once a year. i'm leaving a lot of ppl i care about, especially d little ones that i love so much. as little as they are, how long will it be due to my prolonged absences, before they'll forget abt me? as far as parents go, i'm sure they wont forget. in my preparation to leave, mum's making me wash all my soft toys n pack them into this big wooden box that i have in d room. it just feels so strange, like as if i'm packing all my childhood into that brown box. all of me into that box....

aside from dat, leaving home means growing up big time n being an adult. can i do it? all my life, i've dreamed of the day dat i'll be leaving, it's almost been my lifelong dream to leave malaysia. all those years i just didn't realise dat i'll be finding it bloody tough to actually start packing. before i leave, i'm already missing those times that i'm gonna be absent. christmas, new year's, easter, all the birthdays. d only family celebration that i'll be able to be around from now on is my parents wedding anniversary. rite now these lines from nickleback's song Photograph best describes how i feel,

"I miss that town, I miss their faces
You can't erase, you can't replace it
I miss it now, I can't believe it
So hard to stay, too hard to leave it
Every memory of looking out the back door
I got the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye "

d other thing dat worries me is, how long will it be before I start to forget? i know it really sounds crazy, but what if i do? i just cant shake dat off my mind....

before d year is over n d total death count of friends, relatives n church members is 7... just in a matter of 4 months... it's quite depressing when ppl ard u seem to be dropping like flies.

what say you?

i was just listening to d radio n i happened to hear Katherine MacPhee's "Over It" n Chris Daughtry's "It's Not Over" back to back. take a look at d lyrics.

Over It

I'm over your lies, and I'm over your games

I'm over you asking me when you know I'm not okay

You call me at night, and I pick up the phone

And though you've been telling me, I know you're not alone

Oh and thats why

Your eyes, I'm over it

Your smile, I'm over it

Realize, I'm over it

I'm over it, I'm over…

Wanting you to be wanting me

No, that ain't no way to be

How I feel, read my lips

Because I'm so over,I'm so over..

I'm so..Movin' on, and it's my time

You never were a friend of mine

Hurt at first a little bit

And now I'm so over it

So over it, I'm so over it

Wanting you to be wanting me

No, that ain't no way to be

How I feel, read my lips

Because I'm so over it

Movin' on, and it's my time

You never were a friend of mine

It's Not Over

I was blown away.

What could I say?

It all seemed to make sense.

You've taken away everything,

And I can't deal with that.

I try to see the good in life,

But good things in life are hard to find.

We'll blow it away, blow it away.

Can we make this something good?

Well, I'll try to do it right this time around.

Let's start over.

I'll try to do it right this time around.

It's not over.

'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.

This love is killing me,

But you're the only one.

It's not over.

Taken all I could take,

And I cannot wait.

We're wasting too much time

Being strong, holding on.

Can't let it bring us down.

My life with you means everything,

So I won't give up that easily.

I'll blow it away, blow it away.

Can we make this something good?

'Cause it's all misunderstood.

Well, I'll try to do it right this time around.

Let's start over.

I'll try to do it right this time around.

It's not over.

'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.

This love is killing me,

But you're the only one.

It's not over.

We can't let this get away.

Let it out, let it out.

Don't get caught up in yourself.

Let it out.

Let's start over.

I'll try to do it right this time around.

It's not over.

'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.

This love is killing me,

But you're the only one.

It's not over.

Let's start over.

It's not over, yeah...

This love is killing me,

But you're the only one.

It's not over.

anyone other than me thinks there might be something more than just songs by 2 finalists from American Idol??

guys that i like

this post is totally random.

well since my blog has been ignored again, n i've been having way toooooooo much time on my hands doin mothing much, i kinda got thinking. abt d kinda guys that i like. well for one i know, bad-boy attitude seems to turn me on, plus a whole lot of muscles. pure hotness for me. so here is specimen no.1 of d guys dat i like.

Jason Momoa

he first caught my eye when i was watching Season 2 of Stargate Atlantis. i could say it was love at frist sight 4 me. defintely!! he looked so hawt!!! SUPER HAWT!!! all his muscles n his hair was a big, big turn on. i like long hair on guys if they look good with it. he can melt with his smile, unfortunately i couldn't find any picture with him smiling.

n he does hv dat bad boy look... n he is awesome with his guns... HE IS THE DEFINITION OF HOTNESS FOR ME!!!

specimen no 2

Eddie Cahill

caught him on CSI:NY. only thing is they dun show much of him as he is just d bad cop who catches d suspects. he is d bad boy there n i like his attitude. a bit of charm n sacarsam added in n mixed well. n oh yeah, he handles d guns too. i like boys wit guns. plus he looks extremely good in a suit. :P

random ramblings....

i was out shopping in bandar baru wit my mom n sis on thursday n in this particular boutique called 'Lamour' there was this super cute, nice, elegant, sassy n ethnic looking jacket. it was more like a spanish design n it was absolutely gorgeous. the best part, it was going on 50% discount. n i think that's a great steal since the original price of that jacket is RM300. but d only problem is, if i buy it, when can i use it? it's not a casual wear jacket, rather it's d kind of jacket that u would use to a dinner or a night out clubbing. n since dinners aren't very often n i don't/not allowed to go clubbing, there will be a high chance that i wont wear it at all. n so mummy says i cant buy it. haihz..... wat a waste.


p.s. if anyone wants to get me a belated birthday gift, feel free to ask 4 d exact location of d shop ya. i'll be happy to take that as a gift.

of life updates and tags....

well lets start by me apologising to my long ignored and scorned blog.. 'Sorry bloggy, i cannot hereby promise that i will not ignore you again, because thats the very likely thing thats going to happen'.... well another apology next time i guess.

so now that's done n over with, lets get back to me. updates since the last time i updated my blog is not much, but dat dun mean i've been doin absolutely nothing. u see, dear readers, yours truly has been employed as her mother's secretary. and without any pay!!! somebody should file a complaint about child labour abuse :( anyways besides that i was in college last friday (6/7) to sell my old a-levels books. well old would be an understatement as some of those books are as good as new and most of them are under 1 year old. it's quite funny meeting up with d lecturers u know, they dont seem that intimidating or as irrating as they used to be while u were studying. i guess that feeling comes with the liberation from the course. anyways since i met most/all of my lecturers, here's what they hv to say:

Mr. Karamjeet: oh, ur here! selling photostated books is it?
me: no got ori books also. so sir, ask ur students to come n buy from us k
Mr. K: yeah i'll tell them, but make sure u sell them the ori books only

Ms Ho: hi there. u r looking very well rested and relaxed.
me thinking as soon as she said those words, makes me wonder how bad i really looked when the exams were goin on *shudders*. imagine seeing thousands of walking zombies trudging up to the MPH

Ms Yap: hi there. how are you?
me: i'm fine
Ms Y: hey are u selling my notes also ar?
me: ya, i sold them edi
Ms Y: who did u sell them to?
me: no worries cher, i sold them to another PM8 student
Ms Y: *blur look* huh? oww u mean the 0701 intake? *laughs* ok can.

overall made quite a bit of money selling my books, so was quite satisfied.


the next outing i had was goin for dinner with d klang gang. it was actually a bit of a farewell party for premi who's goin of to aussie to furthur her studies. was quite an entertaing dinner. well i guess dats wat u get when u mix all of us together. there was a whole lot of laughter and needless to say, we were the noisiest table present. well premi, if ur goin, it's best to go with a big bang rite.. XD

i forsee this post is going to be a super long post. cos i've got to do gracie's 100 question tag next. anyways gracie, d moment i saw d start of ur post with d tag, i just knew my name would be at d bottom. n u proved me right, i guess our mental wavelength is still d same eh? even if we hardly see each other.


1. First thing you wash in the shower?
my face

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
well I don’t hv a hoodie, but black would be d colour of my fave hoodie. When I get it.

3. Do you like coffee?
I aint a regular coffee drinker, but I have to say that I love coffee during exams. How else can I stay up all night studying n still be able to hv the presence of mind to do my papers?
THANK YOU GOD FOR CREATING COFFEE!!!

*did d tag creator do this on purpose? Mana no 4?*

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
I’m actually feeling rather chatty. But since no one’s on9 4 me to chat with, might as well spend d energy on d survey.

6. Whats the last letter of your crush's name?
u see…. I have a problem here…. This question is only applicable if u hv a crush. Therefore answer not available since I hv no crush.

7. Do you say aim or a-i-m?
I suppose dat would be aim

8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
If cant remember. I usually cant remember my dreams unless they are really very vivid...

*tag creator has math problems, no 9 is missing*

10. What are you craving?
SHOPPING!!!! I hven’t been shopping 4 6 months, n those who know me, they know that deserves to be added to the Guiness Would Book of Records!!

11. Do you floss?
sssh… dun tell anybody… I dont

12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
stir fried with egg… I love it

15. Would you dance with someone to the taco song?
no 1: wats d taco song?
No 2: I hv been diagnosed as having two left feet. I cant dance

16. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
hell no… y would I want to do dat???

17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
lick it of course..

18. Do you use smileys?
yeah I do

*somebody please send d tag creator for maths classes to Mr. Karamjeet*

20. Have you ever met a celebrity?
does joey g n fancesca peters count?.

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
I love cheese...

22. What's the last song you had stuck in your head?
Mark Schultz – Letters from war… I don’t know why, but hearing dis song n watching d video just made me cry…

23. How many countries have you visited?
Singapore only… quite lame rite… but nvm, Europe is on d way for me.

24. Are your parents strict?
they are regarding some n certain issues. But on the whole, I’d say I’ve got a better deal than some others...

25. I'm gay?
makes no sense whatsoever to me

26. Would you go out to eat with George Bush?
not the most attractive person on earth. So no, but I would be happy if he could pay for my dinner with Jason Momoa…. XD *dream on Louie*

27. Would you throw potatoes at him?
maybe. If he doesn’t pay for my future dinner with Jason Momoa...

28. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in?
nope...

31. Who sits behind you in your math class?
there used to be many others during d course of a-levels. Why? Cos I was instructed to sit in front of d class.

33. Ha No. 32
apa ini?.. does d survey writer need to go for english classes as well?

34. Can you count backwards from 74?
no other work meh…...

35. Where are you going to be doing on Saturday night?
filling up this survey.. its already Saturday nite...

36. Brown or white eggs?
is there a difference??...

37. Like rap music?
depends on d song. Yeah I guess…

38. Ever taken a train?
uh-huh...

39. Experienced the twin towers falling in New York?
nope.. now dat u mention it, I don’t want to at all...

41.What day is it?
Saturday!

42. What was your lunch?
chi kut the, with stir fried pak choi n rice. Very Chinese meal.

43 What is your best friend doing tomorrow?
Gracie?. Most likely sleep her head off…

45. Ever have cream puffs?
oh yeah.. u wanna know a secret. D bakery near my house sell d best cream puffs ever. Damn cheap also, only RM 0.45 for a piece...

46. Have you ever seen the Butterfly Effect?
I've probably seen it but I didn’t realize it. Well u do realize dat everytime a butterfly flaps its wings the butterly effect could be taking place rite……

47. So, how about them Yankees?
well I aint got nothing again em Yanks..

48. Do you like gay people?
I guess I’ll be fine. I survied tanuj n Daniel. XD

49. Why do you say that?
I haven’t met any real gay couple la k. I’ll just them as they come k, they hv a right to society.

50. Are you going to answer the other 50 questions?
since there’s nothing else better to do. Why not??

51. Is your hair curly?
Nope...it's straight wit abit of waves.

52. Last time you cried?
A few days ago, mark Schultz made me cry. I hate crying. But once in a long, long time I welcome a good cry.

53. Ever walked into a wall?
Um. Nearly, a couple of times. Lol. Which would u prefer, a volleyball net or a wall? *flashback to redang* XD

56. Are you currently wearing socks?
stockings count?...

57. Favorite time of the year?
The Malaysian Mega Sale! Christmas or any other time I can go shopping

59. Are you a generally happy person?
I suppose so. Well u certainly don’t see me tearing at every corner.

60. Are you wearing jeans?
Nope...I'm wearing slacks...hehe.. still haven’t changed out of my church clothes

61. The next person you'll hold hands with?
I dunno. It depends when I’m gonna be shaking hands next XD

62. Do you sleep with the TV on?
nah...

63. Have you ever drank alcohol straight from the bottle?
yeah, Paul Mason wine’s are d best....

64. Do you think you're old?
Nope..

65. Are you afraid of the dark?
nope. I can survive it...

66. Do you like your life right now?
it’s fine.. actually I think it’s good. Life could be a whole lot worse.

67. When's the last time you chose a bath over a shower?
gosh!! Its so long ago I cant even remember when.

68. Do you knock on wood?
Nope

69. Do you have good vision?
well I’m wearing contacts. But I’m good at seeing those really cute guys across d road…hehehe… grace when we gonna go out n cuci mata?

71. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
nope I don’t think so...

72. Do you have a job?
a job without pay that is…....

73. Describe ur best friend(s)?
Gracie can crack me up anytime, plus we share a mental connection that’s still workin even tho we aren’t seeing each other dat often… julian is still waiting for another chance to kick me at pool… lavee can make my mouth water all d way from frace by just telling me all those delicacies she’s cooked up.. cant wait 4 u to get back woman…. with frenz like these there’s no way life can be boring.
74-76 is missing?? Tag writer really needs to go back to Standard 1

77. Can you handle the truth?
take the bull by the horn babeh!!

78 also missing. Cacatnya
79. How often do you talk on the phone?
I sms most of d time……

80. Are you in a complicated relationship?
no relationship, how to be complicated? Apa la u??

81. Do you hate more than 3 people?
no... even if I did I wont be telling

83. Are you sarcastic?
not always, but when d switch is on u had it……

86. Do you use chopstick?
I’m better than some of the Chinese at this k… dun play play...

87. Are you too excited over stuffs?
Sometimes. I try to keep d lid on my emotions….

88. Do you shop often?
I hvent 4 d past 6 ½ months. But I’m goin on a rampage soon. I love shopping!!!! SALEZILLA here I come!!!!

89. Do you owe ppl money?
not really…. I try to be self-sufficient….

90. Have you made a prank phone call?
certainly….. *horns appearing beside d halo*

91. Have you ever been to hawaii?
I wish.. but I can do part of d Hawaiian dance…..

92. Do you like your hair?
liking it better nowadays after a couple of nightmare cuts.

93. Do you enjoy laughing?
i do. Sadly ppl dun appreciate my laugh. Scary laugh it seems… hmmph

94. Are you closer to your mother or father?
Mummy...

95. Do you chat on msn often?
Always! Cant go out much wat...

98. What's the closest thing to you that has a leg?
d computer table….. wat?? U din say it had to be alive…

99. Does your crush comment your myspace?
I dun hv a crush... neither do I hv a myspace accout.. jeez….

100. Do you comment theirs?
dun hv means dun hv la… y keep asking??? haiyo
Tag 5 people:
Prakky – u need something to update ur blog *hint hint*
Premi – one for d road gal! make it ur last tag b4 u leave
Hammie - just do it k
Lisa – u said u wanted to update ur blog, here’s some help… XD
Anyone else who wants to do this k….

redang trip

first of all i have to say this was d most awesome trip i've ever had in my life. it was so superly and uberly fun. right from d bus ride from subang all d way to redang and the way back home.

i'm waiting 4 all d pics dat we took there, so after the pics come in i'll put the whole stpry down. as i aint so good wit words n pictures tell a thousand words... XD
n guys get set for our futsal outing..hehehe n we definitely need more chivas... XD
cheers ppl!!!!

its over... finally!!!!

yes ppl, it is the truth.... its over.. finally... ver very over....

A-LEVELS IS DONE AND OVER WITH!!!

i cant express the relief that washed over me once the last paper was done.. it has by no means been a pleasant ride. i must admit there was a whole lot of good times, but underneath it all there was an undercurrent of uneasiness.. cant explain why.. n dont really know why either.. i'm just glad its over... now i cant wait for my vacation... XD

REDANG!!!! HERE I COME!!!! XD XD XD

i dont cry for yesterday past, i cry for tommorow lost

was listenting to Light n Easy on d way back from coll earlier, n i heard this song. pretty nice... n its a good listen, even tho its a tad emo..

Duran Duran - Ordinary World

Came in from a rainy Thursday
On the avenue
Thought I heard you talking softly

I turned on the lights, the TV
And the radio
Still I can't escape the ghost of you

What has happened to it all?
Crazy, some are saying
Where is the life that I recognize?
Gone away

But I won't cry for yesterday
There's an ordinary world
Somehow I have to find
And as I try to make my way
To the ordinary world
I will learn to survive

Passion or coincidence
Once prompted you to say
"Pride will tear us both apart"
Well now pride's gone out the window
Cross the rooftops
Run away
Left me in the vacuum of my heart

What is happening to me?
Crazy, some'd say
Where is my friend when I need you most?
Gone away

But I won't cry for yesterday
There's an ordinary world
Somehow I have to find
And as I try to make my way
To the ordinary world
I will learn to survive

Papers in the roadside
Tell of suffering and greed
Here today, forgot tomorrow
Ooh, here besides the news
Of holy war and holy need
Ours is just a little sorrow
It's all gone away

And I don't cry for yesterday
There's an ordinary world
Somehow I have to find
And as I try to make my way
To the ordinary world
I will learn to survive

Every one
Is my world, I will learn to survive
Any one
Is my world, I will learn to survive
Any one
Is my world
Every one
Is my world

i know i'm irresponsible, but do u find me adorable??

i'm dead bored in college n since i've got nothing else better to do... i shall tell d whole world i love this song... XD... besides, my mind is attacked by d disease diagnosed as 'extreme brain malfunction due to exams'... lolz... lame i know, but i've got nothing else better to do...

MICHAEL BUBLE
Call Me Irresponsible

Call me irresponsible
Call me unreliable
Throw in undependable, too

Do my foolish alibis bore you?
Well, I'm not too clever, I
I just adore you

So, call me unpredictable
Tell me I'm impractical
Rainbows, I'm inclined to pursue

Call me irresponsible
Yes, I'm unreliable
But it's undeniably true
That I'm irresponsibly mad for you

Do my foolish alibis bore you?
Girl, I'm not too clever, I
I just adore you

Call me unpredictable
Tell me that I'm so impractical
Rainbows, I'm inclined to pursue

Go ahead call me irresponsible
Yes, I'm unreliable
But it's undeniably true
I'm irresponsibly mad for you

You know it's true
Oh, baby it's true

of chemistry and tears.....

yesterday was a day to go down in history. y?? because for the first time in all her 19 years of life, Ms. Louisa Abigail D'Cruz cried over a test paper. yes. for the very first time since she went to school, she cried over a bloody test paper. n of all papers, chemistry.

when they took the paper out of d packaging yesterday, i saw d buckyballs question on d last page, my heart sank. as it was, i was already on the verge of hyperventilating when we went in2 the examination hall, when i saw that question, i almost stopped breathing. i know i sound so very exaggerating, but its true. chemistry has been my best subject so far in a-lvls n i tot i could nail it with an A for A2. n i worked my bloody ass of for chemistry. to think that it all came to be a waste. Y?? cos the paper was so darned horrible. i mean,come on. since when did chemistry applications become the 'new core chemistry'. its supposed to be filed under fucking options la. u damned english people, do u know wat the meaning of options is??? it means that its not important and we can choose wat we wanna do. y was dat damned chemistry 4 ppr so full of options. almost nothing of core chemistry came out. arrrghhhh!!!!!!!!!

as i looked through all the paper, it took all my willpower not to cry in the examination hall itself. the paper was so fucking hard la.. damn it... i just couldnt keep it in any longer when i called mummy n was talking to her. for once, i know how it feels to be so dissapointed in a paper. especially if the paper is ur best subject.

to haseena, raeyna n lai yen . thank you so much for just being there with me. i know the paper went bad for u guys as well. but seriously, thanks for making me feel better. love u guys loads.

to all those who had read this far, thank you for listening to the rantings of a deranged student.

this i pray. amen

OUTLANDISH
"I Only Ask Of God"

I only ask of God
He won't let me be indifferent to the suffering
That the very dried up death doesn't find me
Empty and without having given my everything

I only ask of God
He won't let me be indifferent to the wars
It is a big monster which treads hard
On the poor innocence of people
It is a big monster which treads hard
On the poor innocence of people

People...people, people

I only ask of God
He won't let me be indifferent to the injustice
That they do not slap my other cheek
After a claw has scratched my whole body

I only ask of God
He won't let me be indifferent to the wars
It is a big monster which treads hard
On the poor innocence of people
It is a big monster which treads hard
On the poor innocence of people

People...people...people

Solo le pido a Dios
Que la guerra no me sea indiferente
Es un monstro grande y pisa fuerte
Toda la pobre inocencia de la gente
Es un monstro grande y pisa fuerte
Toda la pobre inocencia de la gente

People...people...people

reversal of roles

in all my yesteryears, it was me who was leaning on my mom's shoulder for support. when i was tired, her shoulder or lap was the most comfortable place in the world, it still is. 2day, while we were in church waiting for the pentecost vigil 2 start, mom turns 2 me n tells me, 'sit up straight, i wanna sleep on ur shoulder. i'm just so tired.' i really just dunno how 2 explain how i feel, about how our roles in time are changing. when i was younger, i was seeking comfort, n now i'm the source of comfort. vice versa for my mom. its just scary at times. it's also proof that i', growing up, no longer a sheltered child at my mom's knee. i only hope that in future times, i will be able 2 play and live my role as well as she has. with unyielding strength, yet with unfathomnable gentleness n love, following the steps of my mom.

bedroom survey...

Condoms:
- nope.. mum will freak if she finds out n den ya'll can all come for my funeral

Cell phone:
- uh-huh

Chair/stool:
- yeapz

Book shelf:
- its supposed 2 be a book shelf, but has been d resident home for all my teddies, photos n some CDs for the past 10 yrs

Dresser:
- definitely..

Computer:
- nope...

Bean bag:
- nah...

Pictures:
- oh yeah..all my cutie kiddy photos..

Mirror:
- of course!!! imagine the life without one.. oh the horror!!!..

Skateboard:
- nah...

Bed:
- of course...

Clothes on the floor:
- nah.. will find em in d dustbin d next day

Surfboard:
- nopez

Smoke detector:
- nopes

Piano/keyboard/guitar/bass/drums:
- none of d above, but my violin is in my room...

Locking door:
- a total must!!

Bottle of water:
- onli when i go 2 sleep

A blacklight:
- nope..

Medals/ribbons:
- nope all downstairs..

Awards:
- same as above

Sport accessories:
- futsal ball count???

CDs:
- yeaaa!!

Flag:
- nopez

stop sign/any sign:
- yeah.. a DND door sign on my door.. taken from spain

Caution tape:
- a DND door sign counts rite.....

Paintball:
- nope

Real Gun:
- dat would be cool....

Cigarettes:
- nah..

Candle:
- none..

Books:
- yeapz..a select few dat i read when i cant sleep.. the rest r downstairs

Nintendo:
- no..

Play Station:
- none in d house

Xbox:
- nopw

Stereo:
- uh-huh

Television:
- nope.. but my sis has... but she dun hv a stereo player... XD

Lighter:
- nope...

Gum:
- nope...

How many windows do you have in ur room?
- one twin window.. y'd u wanna know?? wanna sneak in at nite is it??.. dun bother trying, its barred... XD

What is the color of your walls?
- white n pale pink..

Hardwood floor, tile, or carpet?:
- tiles... freezing cold when d AC is left on all nite long...

What color is your bed?
- its wooden, so brown...

what is on ur walls?
- my name n my sis name in cross-stich.. picture of jesus rite above my bed. 2 framed poems given 2 me on confirmation n a congratulations for my confirmation..

Has the opposite sex been in your room before?
- does my daddy n my lil cousins count?? my cousins love my room...

I tag :
- Grace
- Raeyna
- Lai Yen
- Siron
- Serge

say goodbye & thanks for the memories...

friday was officially the last day for me as an a-levels students. as i was reminising the first day of classes on how each of us, strangers, are now friends. time has passed and has indeed changed all of us. we are now older and opefully more wiser. i must say that it was no bed of roses that we slept on. it was a very bumpy rollercoaster ride, with lots of ups and downs. but through it all, we managed to come out stronger. n i must say, the last leg of the journery was the bumpiest of all. i am thankful to have all of you as frens and i dont regret knowing ya'll one bit. it's been one hell of a rollercoaster ride, thany you everyone for the memories.

this is goodbye,
our last song
at the end of the road

memories of days past,
of tears and laughter,
of anger and of fear,
of love and friendship,
are etched forever
in my mind.

thank you for you,
for filling my life
with your colours and song
for making my canvas of memories
the most beautiful work of art.

as we go our separate ways,
my wish for each of you
that all your dreams come true,
and that one day,
we may chance to meet again
along that road we call life.

male pregnancy?!?!??!?!?!?

http://www.malepregnancy.com/

this is damn sick la...

coincidence or fate?.. u decide

well over d weekend i've been pretty hooked on this hindi song 'rafta rafta' which i got from sanil. i let haseena hear d song yesterday n now she's hooked on it too. but somthing strage happens when haseena listens to dat song. her ex-crush, donkey mysteriously appears when ever she listens to 'rafta rafta'. it all started yesterday in d library.

*flashback*

me sittin wit haseena at d table in d middle of d lib & thivyah was at d computers. i saw donkey come n sit at d table next to ours, n his seat was next 2 haseena. to me, no big deal, but den, thivyah was feeling naughty.. so she called haseena n asked haseena 2 look at donkey. n haseena, being a blur case, got up walked 2 thivyah n looked at donkey. well, dat was only d 1st time, l8er when thivyah was sitting next 2 haseena n both of dem were listening 2 rafta rafta on my mp3 player, thivyah starts singing n gets haseena to look at donkey. donkey actually hears a bit of d singing n turns 2 look at our table, n at d same time haseena is looking at him.
to cut d long story short, thivyah kept doin dat a few times.

*back 2 today*

during 2nd period when we were in d library, haseena was listening 2 rafta rafta again, and suddenly donkey walks past us.

lunch time, haseena humming d rafta rafta tune, donkey walks past again.

in d library again, me singing d rafta rafta song, n donkey is seen again.

d weird part is, its been a long while since we saw donkey. n suddenly, we're seeing him everywhere.

d big deal abt the song>>>> it actually means falling in love slowly.... u get my drift???

100th post tag XD

since Gracie tagged me, i might as well do it for my 100th post. at least dat makes my post a lil bit more interesting...

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. No cheating.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.
5. Tag 5 people.

HOW ARE YOU FEELING TODAY?
Linkin Park - What I've Done
~really interesting. while i dun fell like erasing myself, i certainly would like to erase some of the events that hv happened in d past week. even if i was not part of it, some things are just sucky.

WILL YOU GET FAR IN LIFE
Cute is What We Aim For - Lyrical Lies
~ Grace, funny dat we should hv d same artist for dis qeustion eh?? well i suppose i shall get far in life if i woo my superiors wit lyrical lies... bah, wat a waste of talent there...

WHAT IS YOUR BEST FRIEND'S THEME SONG?
Avril Lavinge - Runaway
~ yes, i think some days she would just love to have this as her theme song.. i can hear Grace singing, "i just wanna scream n loose control, throw my hands up and let it go, forget about everything and runaway....." yes, i think this is perfect as her theme song.

WHAT IS THE STORY OF YOUR LIFE?
Michael W. Smith - I will Be Here For You
~ another bullseye by my music player. i guess it's right cos i tend 2 be the one my close frens call to share their problems. n i guess i hv said dat many times, n i hv no regrets, after all a fren in need is a fren indeed.

WHAT WAS HIGH SCHOOL LIKE?
Lindsay Lohan - Confessions of a Broken Heart
~ not exactly the best song, but i can say in some ways it fits rite in. not regarding the boys tho. more like being pushed aside cos ur different. but that was ages ago n i'm faring much better now. so no regrets. what cant break you only makes you stronger, n i believe in dat.

HOW CAN YOU GET AHEAD IN LIFE?
Amy Winehouse - You Know I'm no Good
~ ermm.. i hv no idea wat 2 say. bad music player!!! hmmph...

WHAT'S THE BEST THING ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS?
Hillsongs - Jesus, You Are My Best Friend
~ my music player seems 2 want 2 make up for d last song choice. well, in all our different stages of life we have met many frens. n over time, we lose contact with some of them, or we fall out wit some of them, while wit some frens we can go a long way. wit Jesus, he will stick with you through thick n thin. n yeah, Jesus U are my best friend in d whole wide universe!!!

DESCRIBE YOUR GRANDPARENTS
Lindsay Lohan - Rumors
~ no comments at all.. d song doesnt even make a connection...

HOW'S YOUR LIFE GOING?
Rihanna ft Jay-Z - Umbrella
~ well, there have been rainy days this past week, literally n figuratively. good thing tho, been able to see who will actually let u under d umbrella n stick together wit u.

WHAT SONG WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL? (DONT LAUGH!)
Seal - Kiss From A Rose
~ awww, so sweet.. thanks guys!!!!

WILL YOU HAVE A HAPPY LIFE?
Hillary Duff - Dignity
~ WHAT THE HECK?!?!?!?!?!? money dun make my world go round, n i'm not gonna give up my dignity for a life of comfort... hmmph

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS REALLY THINK OF YOU?
Avril Lavinge - I Can Do Better
~ oh great!! WTF? *glares at music player*

DO PEOPLE SECRETLY LUST AFTER YOU?
P. Diddy ft Keyshia Cole - Last Night
~ erm.. not sure wat to make of this, but i think it's a yes... XD

HOW CAN YOU MAKE YOURSELF HAPPY?
Fall Out Boy - Dont You Know Who I Think I Am?
~not a very inspiring song. but den wat the heck....

WHAT SHOULD YOU DO WITH YOUR LIFE?
Cute Is What We Aim For - Crush
~ i suppose this means that i should spend my life tryin 2 figure out wat 2 do with my crushes. uh-oh i dun think so, got better things to do....

WILL YOU EVER HAVE CHILDREN?
Joseph Arthur - Honey and the moon
~"if your werent real, i would make you up"... definitely yes. i love kids.

WHAT SONG WOULD YOU STRIP TO?
Justin Timberlake - Summer Love
~ no comments......

WHAT DOES YOUR MOM THINK OF YOU?
Avril Lavinge - When You're Gone
~ erm.. just goes to show how much my mummy loves me... XD i guess i'm not gonna be far from home always... Love you 2 Mummy!!!!!

WHAT IS YOUR DEEP, DARK SECRET?
Shakira - Eyes Like Yours
~ no comments.. it's supposed 2 be a secret rite???

WHAT IS YOUR MORTAL ENEMY'S THEME SONG?
Hillary Duff - With Love
~ well i'm pretty sure she's gonna do everything 'with love'...

WHAT IS YOUR PERSONALITY LIKE?
Hillary Duff - Between You and Me
~ yeapz.. i've got 2 personalities n it's just between me n me...

WHAT SONG WILL BE PLAYED AT YOUR WEDDING?
RDB - Rafta Rafta (Remix)
~ well wouldn't dat be nice. d word 'rafta' is supposed 2 mean slowly. n d whole song is abt how dis guy falls in love wit d girl slowly. hence rafta rafta. n for me personally, getting married is certainly something not 2 be rushed in2, even choosing the life partner. take your time....

5 ppl i tag:
1) Prax
2) Hammie
3) Premi
4) Raeyna
5) Lai Yen

HAVE FUN PEOPLE!!!!

my vibe rite now.....

LINKIN PARK - WHAT I'VE DONE


In this farewell,
There is no blood,
There is no alibi,
Cause I've drawn regret,
From the truth,
Of a thousands lies,
So let mercy come and wash away...

What I've Done,
I'll face myself,
To cross out what I've become,
Erase myself,
And let go of what I've done...

Put to rest,
What you thought of me
While, I clean this slate,
With the hands,
Of uncertainty,
So let mercy come,
And wash away...

What I've Done,
I'll face myself,
To cross out what I've become,
Erase myself,
And let go of what I've done...

For what I've done,
I start again,
And whatever pain may come,
Today this ends,
I'm forgiving what I've done...

I'll face myself,
To cross out what I've become,
Erase myself,
And let go of what I've done...

(Na,Na,Na)

What I've Done,
What I've Done,
Forgiving what I've done

tagged again!!!

Your top SIX frens in friendster..

- Don’t change your friendster top 6!
- Fill the people in below!
- Answer the questions truthfully!

1. Julez
2. Lai Yen
3. PM Eight
4. Prakash
5. Siron
6. Vernie

1. Have you ever danced with number 3?
:: well dat would be impossible since its a whole class...

2. Where did you meet number 6?
:: in taylors college. she's good frens wit d wacky mokney Ashy

3. Have you ever gotten drunk with number 5?
:: nope not yet. we've nvr drunk 2gether b4

4. Have you ever kissed number 4?
:: eww NOOOOOO!!!!

5. Have you ever kissed number 1?
:: no no no....

6. Have you ever gone shopping with 3?
:: i guess dat counts as a yes since i've been out wit a couple of dem

7. Have you ever seen 2 in a swimsuit?
:: does d pic on her friendster count???

8. Have you ever met 1's family?
:: just half of his fly.. only met his mummy

9. Do you know 3's middle name?
:: MEDICINE....

10. Have you ever eaten anything in front of 6?
:: yeapz...

11. Do you trust number 4?
:: yeah...

12. Have you ever fought with number 5?
:: yup..

13. When is the last time you saw num 6?
:: ages ago... VERNIE i miss !!!

14. Are any of your top 6 family?
:: not really.. no1 is like a bro to me.

15. Have you ever done something dangerous with number 6 ??
:: well we got stalked 2gether. XD

16. Have you ever slept in the same bed with any of the six?
:: nope

17. Do you think 5 and 6 would make a good couple?
:: uh nope.....they dun even know each other

18. Would 2 do anything for you?
:: i guess she would. i think i deserve it XD...

19. Have you ever made out with number 4?
:: ewwww NOOOOO!!

20. Have you ever slept with your number 1?
:: nope...

21. Which have you known the longest?
:: number 5!!

22. Who have you known the shortest?
:: number 6

23. Has anyone in your top 6 seen you cry?
:: uh huh. no 5 has seen it. n no 4 as well..

24. Have you had a crush on 1 - 6?
:: yeah on no 5. we used 2 date in form 4.

25. Have you done anything illegal with number 4?
:: hmm.. i'm not sure.. hv i done antyhing wit u dat will make mummy angry??? =)

26. Will 1 - 6 repost this?
:: no 4 is d one dat tagged me. i think no 5 may do it.. d rest dunno

5ppl i tag:

1) Julez
2) Lai Yen
3) PM Eight
4) Siron
5) Vernie

life is fragile

as forementioned, life is fragile. this morning i was shocked out of my senses when i received a call from an old school mate from Convent. n the news she bore was anything but pleasant. 3 of my former school mates were involved in a car crash this morning at 3.00am that robbed them of their lives. the deceased, Reshween, Kosheela n Eswari were out celebrating Reshween's 19th bday, which incidentally is today (1st May). Reshween's boyfren, Jagdeep was driving the car. he was the only one who survived the crash n he is currently unconscious in ICU at Sunway Medical Center.

Kosheela was buried 2 day, n Reshween will be buried tmrw. just when we thought we could live forver, life crashed for them. we are not invincible. a msg goin out 2 all my other frens who drive, take care when ur on the road. the destruction left behind is unbearable for closest relatives.

not only to those who drive, but everyone else. life is fragile, treasure it like nothing else, cos u nvr know when death comes a-knocking.

TO RESHWEEN, KOSHEELA & ESWARI: MAY GOD GRANT ETERNAL REST TO ALL OF YOU. MAY HIS PERPETUAL LIGHT SHINE UPON ALL OF YOU. MAY YOUR SOULS REST IN PEACE. AMEN.

life: the drawing without an eraser

y do we hv to conform to the standards of the world? life aint perfect, so one cant really complain. life is just a very long rollercoaster ride, from the day we were born, right up to this very moment, we've just been up and down and up again. a relentless cycle that goes on and on. many ppl hv asked how do i keep smiling, even when things seem to be at the lowest of the low, i nvr really knew the answer. but lately i've just come to realise, it isn't abt how i'm reacting to the world, its abt how i react to me. i know this may sound really vain, but it's d truth. it's bcos i love me. bcos i love me, i dun really care what others think, i know what i want, n i'm goin for it. many trivial issues hv been lost to me, n i'm happy abt it. i used to think it was of utmost importance to hv a boyfriend, n to hang out wit a cool clique. but somewhere along the way, all of these issues just lost their importance. i learned that boyfriends n cool friends didn't matter, just as long as u hv at least one good friend that truly cares for u. the best friendship of all among girls, i believe, is when any guy wont get between them. sometims boys are just not worth all the trouble they bring. n i aint saying that all guys are worthless, but the ones that are worth their weight in gold will nvr make u cry. yes we are all hypocrites to a certain degree. n yes we change over time. one can hv a complete 180 degrees change in a period of 4 months. but that's life, u adapt to the changes ard u. only those who adapt can survive. the simple theory of evolution put into action in the city.
and yes! we girls are professional gossipers, we hv the in-built gene that causes us to love juicy stories abt our peers. we always love a good story! i admit not all gossip is beneficial n may hurt, but there are gossips that are harmless. if u are feeing left out among ur peers, ask urself y. they can't all be wrong, n u cant be right. some one is definitely in d wrong, if u are d problem, ask ur self y. nobody really knows anybody in their entire lifetime, so prepare to be shocked my anybody and everybody u know. ppl are just predictable at times. and after some time, when routine gets boring, and change occurs, some ppl cant take it. and thats when, literally, all hell breaks loose. hv a nice day.

JOSH GROBAN
You Are Loved (Don't Give Up)

Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
When you're heart's heavy
I...I will lift it for you

Don't give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you
I...I will break it for you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

Don't give up
It's just the hurt that you hide
When you lost inside
I...I will be there to find you

Don't give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you
I...I will shine to guide you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

You are loved
Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
Don't give up
Every one is to be heard
You are loved

TAG! u're it....

since i've been tagged by prakky, i mite as well do this...


5 reasons why i blog:
1) started as a hopeless attempt for me to keep a diary
2) a good medium for me to vent at times
3) it kinda gets addictive
4) i do enjoy writing my poetry
5) sometimes there's just nothing else better to do XD

5 people i tag:
1) Grace
2) Shankar
3) Siron
4) Lai Yen
5) Lionel

tome mi mano

tome mi mano,
tal vez podemos bailar,
cuando aprendemos los pasos juntos,
nosotros podemos bailar el baile perfecto,
tan tomar mi mano,
si usted va a,
luego dejar al baile

try it n see....

Create your own Friend Test here

since hammy started it, n premi n ashy hv done theirs... i just wanted 2 see how well u guys knoe me.

the dreamer

the dreamer dreams
in her dreams she dances among the stars
bathed in the glittering moonlight
the wind sings
as it carries her on its gentle breeze
she's as free as the bird
in the realm of her dreams.

but sunlight comes
and it breaks her reverie
she wakes, to face another day
the beauty of the dreams lingers
as the fragments of the dream dissappears
vanquished away by the sunlight.

but the heart of the dreamer is light
she waits for darkness to fall
as in the falling darkness
can the dreamer dream again
dreams filled with beauty
as the night steals her away.

goodies n baddies...

.the good part is dat yesterday i won d latest Nickelback cd from Fly.fm.cant wait 4 it 2 arrice in the mail. they always gimme somthing. i like them. hence, officially my fav music staion. XD



this album has some of my fav tracks. but i'm pretty sure all d tracks r nice.

1. Follow You Home
2. Fight For All The Wrong Reasons
3. Photograph
4. Animals
5. Savin' Me
6. Far Away
7. Next Contestant
8. Side Of A Bullet
9. If Everyone Cared
10. Someone That You're With
11. Rockstar


the bad part is dat i hv a new violin teacher n he's making me cut my nails. dun really like him. hmmph. cant keep long nails any more :-(. tho i'm sure some ppl like joshil n haseena will be glad abt it.. btw grace, he's ur type of guy. XD.

it's all abt me

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updates...

well i guess i shall start from thursday... i din sleep d whole nite trying 2 prepare for mechanics ppr.. tried 2 finish all d trial pyq's... dats sucked.. was a zombie on friday.. mechanics ppr needless to say, sucked to the max!!!! i told mummy edi dat i expect to fail mechanics paper.. d only good thing abt friday i must say is dat i took daddy 2 play pool... yes ppl, i taught my daddy 2 play pool. n he proceeded 2 trash me at 'my' own game... XD but it was fun, since daddy is such a good sport.. hvent been able 2 catch a proper sleep since thursday.. for some reason i have a wierd disease.. i cant seem to sleep in after 8a.m., once in a while i can, but that 'once in a while' is as good as nonexistant... so i'm up early sat morning, trying desperately to sleep.. y??.. cos of d midnite service.. i'm too old 2 be sleeping in church n there's no way i could skip dat cos i had 2 be a godmother 4 a really cute lil girl who i just met on thursday... don't u just love parents n meddlesome aunties who fix everything n den expect u 2 perform??.. well wat the heck, it was easter, n dis girl is cute, so why not??..

come baptism time, when she went up d altar, she was too short 2 reach d baptismal font.. so urs truly decided to do d unexpected... i carried her.. n mind u, she was d only one to be carried.. the whole church started laughing n clapping, n my dear frens who were serving started cheering.. even fr. joachim couln't resist laughing.. XD i was an instant star after dat... y cant i just follow d rules n dun think?? too much of thinking causes all these.. dat was certainly an unforgettable easter..

yest nite we had our annual easter dinner and d lights just kept goin off. for some reason 4 d 1st half of d dinner, d lights kept goin on n off.. we hv decided dat ashley n mel hv something 2 do abt it. cos everytime he went 2 d loo n evertime mel stood up 2 take some food, d lights go out... but nothing beats d 1st time d lights went out..

*everybody talking*
*lights go out*

random ppl: apa la??!? whoooo!!!
mummy: oops! what happened?

*lights on*
ashley: wei, d foods gone!!! they took it when d lights were out. nice magic action!
me: they took it b4 d lights went out la. u were too busy talking 2 notice.. XD
ashley: cheh!! i tot they were doin some cool tricks..

......

so that was it.. a very eventful n exciting easter 2007!!
some pics shall follow later

exams ahoy!!!

trials hv started as of yesterday... n boy i'm glad that the first paper was chemistry... i think it went well enough, partly because at least 5 out of d 9 questions mr. george touched during d tuition class right before that... so i've got high hopes on chemistry... i cant say the same for bio, cos my heart just aint in it... i hven't done as much as i should hv n i dun really have the drive for it... so this time round i'm not counting on it... i've even done more of maths this past few weeks in preparation 4 trials... wtf is wrong wit me la?? bio should be my top priority since i wanna do med... but it seems to be my last lately, n i still wanna do med... hmmph better get my head all sorted out by the end of these coming april hols... must be thoroughly prepared for A2.. i dun wanna make the same mistake i made last year during AS...

went 2 coll 2day to study... i did study but not much.. only a couple of hours... was chillin wit tanuj n mike till 9.30, followed by playing pool wit chandni n daim till 10.. den i went on 2 study till 11.45 b4 yen picked me up n we went 4 lunch... purpose of going 2 collect from miss ho the essays i had done: not accomplished.. i went 2 look 4 her 4 times, n she was not there in d staffroom all those 4 times, n i couldnt get her on her phone also.. damn pissing off...

anyways, lunch was an affair 2 remember... yen n i went 2 TGIF... we spent most of d time just chillin n catching up on erm..some issues... halfway thru d main course, we see dis baby cockaroach.. yen gets a bit freaked out n we call d waitress... d waitress is scared of d baby corckaroach, so she calls the manager.. n d manager comes n apologises for d cockaroach n when we ask him 2 get rid of it, he goes 2 find a tissue 1st.. when he comes back n looks 4 d cockaroach 2 kill it, he says it's gone when we can see it rite dere... yen points n he says 'owwh' n smashes d cockaroach n den tells us 2 enjoy our meal... d whole thing took more den 5 mins.. if it was just up 2 me, d first time i saw dat cockaroach i would hv smashed it.. but yen said no, so i didnt... we should write 2 some newspaper n complain abt d cockaroach infested TGIF in sbg... dey din even offer 2 pay for our meal... hmmph...

Stole this from Gracie's blog.. she in turn actually stole it from Joel's blog. since she did it for me, i'm reposting it.. so comments ppl.. i need 2 keep busy during d hols.. XD

if you leave a comment on this post:

1. I'll respond with something random about you
2. I'll challenge you to try something
3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you
4. I'll tell you something I like about you
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on yours

T.T

AAAARRRRGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just felt like doin dat.... exams are bursting my head out of its seams.... gosh!!!!!!!! y do they like 2 torture students?????

caffeine n me....

well yesterday ard this time, i was feeling pretty sleepy.. n d weather ard here hasn't been helping. since trials are like next week, n i need 2 study, i resorted 2 taking a cup of coffee 2 keep me awake till abt 11.30pm so i could finish whatever i had planned 4 d nite... the coffee certainly helped keep me awake not only till 11.30pm, bbut practically the whole nite....

since my mind was toooo hyper i decided 2 call grace n then i proceeded to keep her awake till 1.00am... n she was sleepy, but me, because of d caffein in my system, still couldn't sleep... so i trudged down from my room at 1.00am in the morning, when the whole house was asleep n started studying again... there was absolutely nothing else to do... i continued studying till abt 3.00am, before i started feeling tired, but not sleepy yet, so again i went into my room, n tried 2 sleep.... dis time i managed 2 get some shut-eye for only two hours... that blasted caffein in my system didn't allow me 2 sleep any longer... so at 5.00am i am awake again.. hmmph... n i've been up ever since n hv been absolutely hyper....some ppl did really get irratated wit me today... i'm sorry all u ppl, but i cant help d blasted effects of caffein...


anyways, dis song is stuck inm y head...
i like it especially when they go into d hallelujah chorus

FALL OUT BOY
Hum Hallelujah

It's all a game of this or that
Now this is there
that out of all the girls worse for wear
And you're someone
Who knows someone who knows someone
I once knew
And I just want to be a part of this

The road outside my house
Is paved with good intentions
Hire a construction crew
Cause it's hell on the engine
And you are the dreamer
And we are the dream.
I could write it better than you ever felt it.

So hum hallelujah,
Just off the key of reason
I thought I loved you
It was just how you looked in the light.
Our teenage vow in a parking lot
Till tonight do us part
I've seen the blues
And I've swallowed them too.

My words are my fate to hell
With our good name.
We mix up your guts
Your insight x-rays, and
One day we'll get nostalgic for disaster
we're a bull, your ears are just a china shop

I love you in the same way
There's chapel in the hospital
one foot in your bedroom
And one foot out the door
Sometimes we take chances,
Sometimes we take pills.
I could write it better than you ever felt it.

So hum hallelujah
Just off the key of reason
I thought I loved you
It was just how you looked in the light.
Our teenage vow in a parking lot
Till tonight, do us part
I've seen the blues
And I've swallowed them too.

Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelu...
Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelu...
(Hum hallelujah (Hum hallelujah), hum hallelujah (Hum hallelujah))

Our teenage vow in a parking lot
Till tonight do us part
I've seen the blues
And swallowed them too.
So...

Hum hallelujah
Just off the key of reason
I thought I loved you
It was just how you looked in the light.

Our teenage vow in a parking lot (Hum hallelujah)
Till tonight do us part
Our teenage vow in a parking lot (Hum hallelujah)
Till tonight do us part
Our teenage vow in a parking lot
Till tonight do us part
I've seen the blues
And I've swallowed them too.

just try a lil bit more....

usually i dun really care what others write on their own blogs. but once in a while i guess i just need to reply to some idiotic and unreasonable accusations.

we listen to our parents because we respect and love them, we are not delicate and can stand our own ground. there are times we stand up to our parents, but there are times also when we let them have their way. our parents aren't just some family figure, our parents are living persons who are actively involved in our lives and care abt the smallest details. it is just the extent of their love, it's a pity that some of you don't have that relationship. if you did, none of the comments passed would have even been formed in your minds. do not judge others with a scale relative to how you lead your life. there are vast differences between two people, no matter how alike they may seem. upbringings are different and family values harped on are different. maybe if some of you just decided to listen to wat others are saying instead of just hearing them speak, differences may be settled witout such a racket. if you would look deeper into the person, instead of just seeing who they seem to be, you might understand their dilemma. but that's not how you are right, you self-centered bigots!!! well, if everyone just cared, you would not be reading this....

i hope u have a nice day...

my name....

What Louisa Means

L is for Luxurious O is for Optimistic U is for Useful I is for Innocent S is for Serene A is for Articulate

What Does Your Name Mean?

What Abigail Means

A is for Amorous B is for Brainy I is for Impassioned G is for Godlike A is for Animated I is for Impressive L is for Loud

What Does Your Name Mean?

WHADDYA'LL THINK???

stole it from prakky's blog

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the queen's another year older!!!!!!!!

since i havent updated my blog for quite a while and i've been asked to update it one too many times, here goes....


as we all know it was the Queen a.k.a. Haseena's bday on wed (7/3/07)... so she had demanded that we throw her a party... n we did, we gave her a party she'll nvr forget... being the Queen, we gave her two cakes... one for eating and the other for CREAM WARS!!!!!!!!!

it all started wit daniel dunking her head into the cake... she got too excited n started throwing cream at others... the 1st one to be the victim was gim ling.. poor gal!!!

so she was the 1st in our class 2 be creamed... followed my me... *sigh*... i din expect haseena 2 cream every1 within her reach... so since we were all creamed, we decided 2 spread d love 2 d rest of d class.... well sharing is caring aint it??.. n since we care abt each other, it was d right thing to do... at d end of it, 3/4 of d members of PM8 were filled wit cream, except a few who managed 2 escape... it was so much fun actually... even d waiters at ac kept their distance from us, although they're quite used 2 our behaviour... since this is not d 1st time its happening...

basically every bday celelbrated wit PM8 is a blast... so if any1 wants a blast bday party.... u know which class to call... XD

i dont care

just because you sacrifice what you feel would have been necessary for the betterment of my life, dont expect me to be grateful......

i didn't ask you to do it...

day 3 = what drives me??

i'm still trying to figure this one out... so i really don't know at the moment... all this while i've just been flowing where the wind blows...

Day 2 = I'm not an accident

well dat was the theme for day two... hmmm dat i can live with... i know i am not an accident, n dat i'm meant to be just the way i am.. so no big deal abt dis one.. just sometimes when i wish i could be different, i need 2 remind myself that this is who i am, and this is exactly the way i am meant to be..

as i was chatting wit one of my msngr buddies, his personal msg went like this "in the pursuit of truth, i became a lie"... how many of us hv ended up just like that??.. we portray ourselves as perfect ppl leading perfect lives, but in reality, deep down inside, in the farthest corners of our beings, where no one else but ourselves ventures, a hurricane brews and unleashes itself. we are tossed by the storms of our own making, n yet sometimes, we are too proud to ask for help...WHY?? does the world really determine who we are and who we should be?? do we really need to change who we are deep inside to be who the world wants on thhe outside?? is it worth the pain and rejection?? most of the time, actually 99.999999999% of the time, it's not worth it...


so since i'm not an accident, and neither are you, we all shoud take time 2 be tour true selves... let's stive to make the world a truer world, not a world full of lies and disguises.. truth hurts sometimes, but in the end it's the only saving grace we have...

Day 1 = It's not abt me

i'm currently goin through dis book called 'The Purpose Driven Life',. it's a book on how ur supposed 2 find ur purpose in life, n since i've been preety much of a lost soul just simply wandering through life wothout any real purpose i decided 2 give the book a chance... so far so good... the aim of the book is to get me though life, while living my life according to the purpose God has designed for me...

so anyways, back to the theme of the day >>> IT'S NOT ABT ME.
when i 1st read it, i was thinking, if life's not abt me, then who is it abt??.. i mean, i'm the one living it n goin thru all the shit n everything, n dis guy says it's not abt me.. but pondering on it later, i did realise life aint abt me.. maybe not absolutely not abt me, but a large part of life in general does not revolve ard me.. for example, if i was having a shitty day, would dat make ur day shitty as well?? no rite... so that's it... it's just one example, but good enough 4 me, i could go on n on, but nvm, i'm 2 lazy...

so basically out of 2day's lesson, i am reminded that from ashes i was created n eventually i will return to ashes.. even if i'm dead or alive, life still goes on.. true, frens and family will mourn, but eventually move on with life.. life does not begin or end with me.. most importantly, i am just a single tread in the tapestry who can never really see its purpose in the pattern of the grand design...


dats it for day 1. period.

VaLeNtInE's DaY!!!

well, as i'm a single and looking gal, i really wasnt expecting much today... n when i woke up i decided dat i aint gonne brood ard n complain dat i ain't got a date or a valentine to spend wit as some of my frens did... n i'm glad i did dat, cos at d end of d day, i did get some flowers n cookies from a close fren.... mysterious things happen when u just don't expect them to.... so dat being said, my valentine's day was not mournful, neither was it very happening, but it just siuted me just fine... n since i'm in a good mood:


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HaPpY vAlEnTiNe'S dAy!!! to one and all... muahxxx

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d flowers n cookies i got from a good fren

well, well, well....

.::CANCER::.

The Cutie

[aww... i know i am XD]

MOST AMAZING KISSER. [now wouldn't u like 2 find out]

Very high sex appeal. [hmmm...]

Great in bed!!! [hmmm....]

Love is one of a kind. [definitely...]

Very romantic. [for me 2 know n 4 u 2 find out.... ;-p]

Most caring person you will ever meet! [definitely...]

Entirely creative. [not so sure abt this one....]

Extremely random and proud of it. [hell yeah!!!]

Freak in bed. [again, not sosure abt this one.... astrologers can be wrong.. prolly meant GREAT in bed...hehehehe]

Spontaneous. [uh huh!!]

Great tellin stories. [dats y kids love me.....]

Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. [anyone wanna try??]

Someone you should hold on to [hmmm....]



well, wat say u??... i'd like a few comments here... XD

have a little patience will ya??

PATIENCE by Take That

Just have a little, patience

I'm still hurting from a love I lost,
I'm feeling your frustration,
Then maybe all the pain will stop,
Just don't be close inside your arms tonight,
Don't be to hard on my emotions

(Chorus)
Cause I, need time,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while I'm still healing,
Just try and have a little patience,

I really wanna start over again,
I know u wanna be my salvation,
The one that I can always depend,

I'll try to be strong, believe me,
I'm trying to move on,
It's complicated but understand me,

Cause I need time,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while I'm still healing,
Just try and have a little patience,

Yeah, have a little patience, Yeah

Cause this scar runs so deep,
It's been hard,
But I have to believe me,

Have a little patience,
Have a little patience,

Cause I, I just need time,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while I'm still healing,
just try, and have a little patience,

Have a little patience,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while I'm still healing
just try and have a little... patience


my scars = to my horrible AS results..... mummy n daddy i'm very very sorry that i dissapointed u guys so bad... i just want 2 do d best n be the best 'me' i can be... it's not easy, n mummy i know ur very dissapointed wit me, but please be patient... i need 2 sort out my emotions 1st be4 everything else can fall into place... just please be patient....

u decide....

well as it has been advertised by my fellow bloggers n classmates.... the AS results are out... needless to say, i didn't do very well... it's not dat bad a set of resuls either, but still definitely not up to mark... for the first time in my entire schooling life, this is the first time that i hv been unable to snag a single A in my finals....every yr end exams n every major government exam i hv always been able to get at least one A.... so in a way ashley, wat u said is right.... in my book a B is bad.......

for my results, i have no one to blame but myself... i know i played to much n worked too little to produce the wanted results... it had been a great yr, i couldn't hv asked for a better class or grp of friends... n being 18, boundries were expanded... so i actually spent quite a bit of my time pushing 2 see how far those boundries went as far as going out wit frens n just chilling....

this has proved to be the undoing in our class... already as the 3rd and final semester progresses the class has been reduced... from the start of the course until now, the total population of 0601PM8 has decreased from 31 students to 21 students...

i'm just very, very sorry that i dissapointed my parents, n myself with my results.... as mentioned beforehand, this set of results is like the worst i've ever achieved... but i won't fall behind... there is approximately 4 months more to go before A2 starts and i dont wish to be left behind... IWONT BE LEFT BEHIND!! i promise that i will put my heart n soul into this exams n make this the best out of me...the past has already gone and not much can be done abt it... but d present is still here and the future is yet to be... for the sake of my future's sanity, i will do what needs to be done...

in line with that, as part of my punishment n a way of helping me prepare myself better... mummy has asked me to give up all the outings with my frens until the results for A2 is out and dat includes shopping n on9 chatting... in other words, my social life has to be put on hold till it is all over... but so far i hv agreed that is what i will do till at least the exams are over... after the exams we shall see what has to be done and decide then.... as grace said, this is humanly impossible.... but i will try.. i will give it my all cos i dun wanna look back n say i should hv taken dat more seriously in d future...

so dear freinds, i will be missing from cyberspace as often as i appeared the past yr...so it's gonna be a temporary hiatus until it's all over... i might drop in once in a while to update....


so till time again...cheers n god bless...
take care everyone....