this i pray. amen

OUTLANDISH
"I Only Ask Of God"

I only ask of God
He won't let me be indifferent to the suffering
That the very dried up death doesn't find me
Empty and without having given my everything

I only ask of God
He won't let me be indifferent to the wars
It is a big monster which treads hard
On the poor innocence of people
It is a big monster which treads hard
On the poor innocence of people

People...people, people

I only ask of God
He won't let me be indifferent to the injustice
That they do not slap my other cheek
After a claw has scratched my whole body

I only ask of God
He won't let me be indifferent to the wars
It is a big monster which treads hard
On the poor innocence of people
It is a big monster which treads hard
On the poor innocence of people

People...people...people

Solo le pido a Dios
Que la guerra no me sea indiferente
Es un monstro grande y pisa fuerte
Toda la pobre inocencia de la gente
Es un monstro grande y pisa fuerte
Toda la pobre inocencia de la gente

People...people...people

reversal of roles

in all my yesteryears, it was me who was leaning on my mom's shoulder for support. when i was tired, her shoulder or lap was the most comfortable place in the world, it still is. 2day, while we were in church waiting for the pentecost vigil 2 start, mom turns 2 me n tells me, 'sit up straight, i wanna sleep on ur shoulder. i'm just so tired.' i really just dunno how 2 explain how i feel, about how our roles in time are changing. when i was younger, i was seeking comfort, n now i'm the source of comfort. vice versa for my mom. its just scary at times. it's also proof that i', growing up, no longer a sheltered child at my mom's knee. i only hope that in future times, i will be able 2 play and live my role as well as she has. with unyielding strength, yet with unfathomnable gentleness n love, following the steps of my mom.

bedroom survey...

Condoms:
- nope.. mum will freak if she finds out n den ya'll can all come for my funeral

Cell phone:
- uh-huh

Chair/stool:
- yeapz

Book shelf:
- its supposed 2 be a book shelf, but has been d resident home for all my teddies, photos n some CDs for the past 10 yrs

Dresser:
- definitely..

Computer:
- nope...

Bean bag:
- nah...

Pictures:
- oh yeah..all my cutie kiddy photos..

Mirror:
- of course!!! imagine the life without one.. oh the horror!!!..

Skateboard:
- nah...

Bed:
- of course...

Clothes on the floor:
- nah.. will find em in d dustbin d next day

Surfboard:
- nopez

Smoke detector:
- nopes

Piano/keyboard/guitar/bass/drums:
- none of d above, but my violin is in my room...

Locking door:
- a total must!!

Bottle of water:
- onli when i go 2 sleep

A blacklight:
- nope..

Medals/ribbons:
- nope all downstairs..

Awards:
- same as above

Sport accessories:
- futsal ball count???

CDs:
- yeaaa!!

Flag:
- nopez

stop sign/any sign:
- yeah.. a DND door sign on my door.. taken from spain

Caution tape:
- a DND door sign counts rite.....

Paintball:
- nope

Real Gun:
- dat would be cool....

Cigarettes:
- nah..

Candle:
- none..

Books:
- yeapz..a select few dat i read when i cant sleep.. the rest r downstairs

Nintendo:
- no..

Play Station:
- none in d house

Xbox:
- nopw

Stereo:
- uh-huh

Television:
- nope.. but my sis has... but she dun hv a stereo player... XD

Lighter:
- nope...

Gum:
- nope...

How many windows do you have in ur room?
- one twin window.. y'd u wanna know?? wanna sneak in at nite is it??.. dun bother trying, its barred... XD

What is the color of your walls?
- white n pale pink..

Hardwood floor, tile, or carpet?:
- tiles... freezing cold when d AC is left on all nite long...

What color is your bed?
- its wooden, so brown...

what is on ur walls?
- my name n my sis name in cross-stich.. picture of jesus rite above my bed. 2 framed poems given 2 me on confirmation n a congratulations for my confirmation..

Has the opposite sex been in your room before?
- does my daddy n my lil cousins count?? my cousins love my room...

I tag :
- Grace
- Raeyna
- Lai Yen
- Siron
- Serge

say goodbye & thanks for the memories...

friday was officially the last day for me as an a-levels students. as i was reminising the first day of classes on how each of us, strangers, are now friends. time has passed and has indeed changed all of us. we are now older and opefully more wiser. i must say that it was no bed of roses that we slept on. it was a very bumpy rollercoaster ride, with lots of ups and downs. but through it all, we managed to come out stronger. n i must say, the last leg of the journery was the bumpiest of all. i am thankful to have all of you as frens and i dont regret knowing ya'll one bit. it's been one hell of a rollercoaster ride, thany you everyone for the memories.

this is goodbye,
our last song
at the end of the road

memories of days past,
of tears and laughter,
of anger and of fear,
of love and friendship,
are etched forever
in my mind.

thank you for you,
for filling my life
with your colours and song
for making my canvas of memories
the most beautiful work of art.

as we go our separate ways,
my wish for each of you
that all your dreams come true,
and that one day,
we may chance to meet again
along that road we call life.

male pregnancy?!?!??!?!?!?

http://www.malepregnancy.com/

this is damn sick la...

coincidence or fate?.. u decide

well over d weekend i've been pretty hooked on this hindi song 'rafta rafta' which i got from sanil. i let haseena hear d song yesterday n now she's hooked on it too. but somthing strage happens when haseena listens to dat song. her ex-crush, donkey mysteriously appears when ever she listens to 'rafta rafta'. it all started yesterday in d library.

*flashback*

me sittin wit haseena at d table in d middle of d lib & thivyah was at d computers. i saw donkey come n sit at d table next to ours, n his seat was next 2 haseena. to me, no big deal, but den, thivyah was feeling naughty.. so she called haseena n asked haseena 2 look at donkey. n haseena, being a blur case, got up walked 2 thivyah n looked at donkey. well, dat was only d 1st time, l8er when thivyah was sitting next 2 haseena n both of dem were listening 2 rafta rafta on my mp3 player, thivyah starts singing n gets haseena to look at donkey. donkey actually hears a bit of d singing n turns 2 look at our table, n at d same time haseena is looking at him.
to cut d long story short, thivyah kept doin dat a few times.

*back 2 today*

during 2nd period when we were in d library, haseena was listening 2 rafta rafta again, and suddenly donkey walks past us.

lunch time, haseena humming d rafta rafta tune, donkey walks past again.

in d library again, me singing d rafta rafta song, n donkey is seen again.

d weird part is, its been a long while since we saw donkey. n suddenly, we're seeing him everywhere.

d big deal abt the song>>>> it actually means falling in love slowly.... u get my drift???

100th post tag XD

since Gracie tagged me, i might as well do it for my 100th post. at least dat makes my post a lil bit more interesting...

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. No cheating.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.
5. Tag 5 people.

HOW ARE YOU FEELING TODAY?
Linkin Park - What I've Done
~really interesting. while i dun fell like erasing myself, i certainly would like to erase some of the events that hv happened in d past week. even if i was not part of it, some things are just sucky.

WILL YOU GET FAR IN LIFE
Cute is What We Aim For - Lyrical Lies
~ Grace, funny dat we should hv d same artist for dis qeustion eh?? well i suppose i shall get far in life if i woo my superiors wit lyrical lies... bah, wat a waste of talent there...

WHAT IS YOUR BEST FRIEND'S THEME SONG?
Avril Lavinge - Runaway
~ yes, i think some days she would just love to have this as her theme song.. i can hear Grace singing, "i just wanna scream n loose control, throw my hands up and let it go, forget about everything and runaway....." yes, i think this is perfect as her theme song.

WHAT IS THE STORY OF YOUR LIFE?
Michael W. Smith - I will Be Here For You
~ another bullseye by my music player. i guess it's right cos i tend 2 be the one my close frens call to share their problems. n i guess i hv said dat many times, n i hv no regrets, after all a fren in need is a fren indeed.

WHAT WAS HIGH SCHOOL LIKE?
Lindsay Lohan - Confessions of a Broken Heart
~ not exactly the best song, but i can say in some ways it fits rite in. not regarding the boys tho. more like being pushed aside cos ur different. but that was ages ago n i'm faring much better now. so no regrets. what cant break you only makes you stronger, n i believe in dat.

HOW CAN YOU GET AHEAD IN LIFE?
Amy Winehouse - You Know I'm no Good
~ ermm.. i hv no idea wat 2 say. bad music player!!! hmmph...

WHAT'S THE BEST THING ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS?
Hillsongs - Jesus, You Are My Best Friend
~ my music player seems 2 want 2 make up for d last song choice. well, in all our different stages of life we have met many frens. n over time, we lose contact with some of them, or we fall out wit some of them, while wit some frens we can go a long way. wit Jesus, he will stick with you through thick n thin. n yeah, Jesus U are my best friend in d whole wide universe!!!

DESCRIBE YOUR GRANDPARENTS
Lindsay Lohan - Rumors
~ no comments at all.. d song doesnt even make a connection...

HOW'S YOUR LIFE GOING?
Rihanna ft Jay-Z - Umbrella
~ well, there have been rainy days this past week, literally n figuratively. good thing tho, been able to see who will actually let u under d umbrella n stick together wit u.

WHAT SONG WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL? (DONT LAUGH!)
Seal - Kiss From A Rose
~ awww, so sweet.. thanks guys!!!!

WILL YOU HAVE A HAPPY LIFE?
Hillary Duff - Dignity
~ WHAT THE HECK?!?!?!?!?!? money dun make my world go round, n i'm not gonna give up my dignity for a life of comfort... hmmph

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS REALLY THINK OF YOU?
Avril Lavinge - I Can Do Better
~ oh great!! WTF? *glares at music player*

DO PEOPLE SECRETLY LUST AFTER YOU?
P. Diddy ft Keyshia Cole - Last Night
~ erm.. not sure wat to make of this, but i think it's a yes... XD

HOW CAN YOU MAKE YOURSELF HAPPY?
Fall Out Boy - Dont You Know Who I Think I Am?
~not a very inspiring song. but den wat the heck....

WHAT SHOULD YOU DO WITH YOUR LIFE?
Cute Is What We Aim For - Crush
~ i suppose this means that i should spend my life tryin 2 figure out wat 2 do with my crushes. uh-oh i dun think so, got better things to do....

WILL YOU EVER HAVE CHILDREN?
Joseph Arthur - Honey and the moon
~"if your werent real, i would make you up"... definitely yes. i love kids.

WHAT SONG WOULD YOU STRIP TO?
Justin Timberlake - Summer Love
~ no comments......

WHAT DOES YOUR MOM THINK OF YOU?
Avril Lavinge - When You're Gone
~ erm.. just goes to show how much my mummy loves me... XD i guess i'm not gonna be far from home always... Love you 2 Mummy!!!!!

WHAT IS YOUR DEEP, DARK SECRET?
Shakira - Eyes Like Yours
~ no comments.. it's supposed 2 be a secret rite???

WHAT IS YOUR MORTAL ENEMY'S THEME SONG?
Hillary Duff - With Love
~ well i'm pretty sure she's gonna do everything 'with love'...

WHAT IS YOUR PERSONALITY LIKE?
Hillary Duff - Between You and Me
~ yeapz.. i've got 2 personalities n it's just between me n me...

WHAT SONG WILL BE PLAYED AT YOUR WEDDING?
RDB - Rafta Rafta (Remix)
~ well wouldn't dat be nice. d word 'rafta' is supposed 2 mean slowly. n d whole song is abt how dis guy falls in love wit d girl slowly. hence rafta rafta. n for me personally, getting married is certainly something not 2 be rushed in2, even choosing the life partner. take your time....

5 ppl i tag:
1) Prax
2) Hammie
3) Premi
4) Raeyna
5) Lai Yen

HAVE FUN PEOPLE!!!!

my vibe rite now.....

LINKIN PARK - WHAT I'VE DONE


In this farewell,
There is no blood,
There is no alibi,
Cause I've drawn regret,
From the truth,
Of a thousands lies,
So let mercy come and wash away...

What I've Done,
I'll face myself,
To cross out what I've become,
Erase myself,
And let go of what I've done...

Put to rest,
What you thought of me
While, I clean this slate,
With the hands,
Of uncertainty,
So let mercy come,
And wash away...

What I've Done,
I'll face myself,
To cross out what I've become,
Erase myself,
And let go of what I've done...

For what I've done,
I start again,
And whatever pain may come,
Today this ends,
I'm forgiving what I've done...

I'll face myself,
To cross out what I've become,
Erase myself,
And let go of what I've done...

(Na,Na,Na)

What I've Done,
What I've Done,
Forgiving what I've done

tagged again!!!

Your top SIX frens in friendster..

- Don’t change your friendster top 6!
- Fill the people in below!
- Answer the questions truthfully!

1. Julez
2. Lai Yen
3. PM Eight
4. Prakash
5. Siron
6. Vernie

1. Have you ever danced with number 3?
:: well dat would be impossible since its a whole class...

2. Where did you meet number 6?
:: in taylors college. she's good frens wit d wacky mokney Ashy

3. Have you ever gotten drunk with number 5?
:: nope not yet. we've nvr drunk 2gether b4

4. Have you ever kissed number 4?
:: eww NOOOOOO!!!!

5. Have you ever kissed number 1?
:: no no no....

6. Have you ever gone shopping with 3?
:: i guess dat counts as a yes since i've been out wit a couple of dem

7. Have you ever seen 2 in a swimsuit?
:: does d pic on her friendster count???

8. Have you ever met 1's family?
:: just half of his fly.. only met his mummy

9. Do you know 3's middle name?
:: MEDICINE....

10. Have you ever eaten anything in front of 6?
:: yeapz...

11. Do you trust number 4?
:: yeah...

12. Have you ever fought with number 5?
:: yup..

13. When is the last time you saw num 6?
:: ages ago... VERNIE i miss !!!

14. Are any of your top 6 family?
:: not really.. no1 is like a bro to me.

15. Have you ever done something dangerous with number 6 ??
:: well we got stalked 2gether. XD

16. Have you ever slept in the same bed with any of the six?
:: nope

17. Do you think 5 and 6 would make a good couple?
:: uh nope.....they dun even know each other

18. Would 2 do anything for you?
:: i guess she would. i think i deserve it XD...

19. Have you ever made out with number 4?
:: ewwww NOOOOO!!

20. Have you ever slept with your number 1?
:: nope...

21. Which have you known the longest?
:: number 5!!

22. Who have you known the shortest?
:: number 6

23. Has anyone in your top 6 seen you cry?
:: uh huh. no 5 has seen it. n no 4 as well..

24. Have you had a crush on 1 - 6?
:: yeah on no 5. we used 2 date in form 4.

25. Have you done anything illegal with number 4?
:: hmm.. i'm not sure.. hv i done antyhing wit u dat will make mummy angry??? =)

26. Will 1 - 6 repost this?
:: no 4 is d one dat tagged me. i think no 5 may do it.. d rest dunno

5ppl i tag:

1) Julez
2) Lai Yen
3) PM Eight
4) Siron
5) Vernie

life is fragile

as forementioned, life is fragile. this morning i was shocked out of my senses when i received a call from an old school mate from Convent. n the news she bore was anything but pleasant. 3 of my former school mates were involved in a car crash this morning at 3.00am that robbed them of their lives. the deceased, Reshween, Kosheela n Eswari were out celebrating Reshween's 19th bday, which incidentally is today (1st May). Reshween's boyfren, Jagdeep was driving the car. he was the only one who survived the crash n he is currently unconscious in ICU at Sunway Medical Center.

Kosheela was buried 2 day, n Reshween will be buried tmrw. just when we thought we could live forver, life crashed for them. we are not invincible. a msg goin out 2 all my other frens who drive, take care when ur on the road. the destruction left behind is unbearable for closest relatives.

not only to those who drive, but everyone else. life is fragile, treasure it like nothing else, cos u nvr know when death comes a-knocking.

TO RESHWEEN, KOSHEELA & ESWARI: MAY GOD GRANT ETERNAL REST TO ALL OF YOU. MAY HIS PERPETUAL LIGHT SHINE UPON ALL OF YOU. MAY YOUR SOULS REST IN PEACE. AMEN.