of chemistry and tears.....

yesterday was a day to go down in history. y?? because for the first time in all her 19 years of life, Ms. Louisa Abigail D'Cruz cried over a test paper. yes. for the very first time since she went to school, she cried over a bloody test paper. n of all papers, chemistry.

when they took the paper out of d packaging yesterday, i saw d buckyballs question on d last page, my heart sank. as it was, i was already on the verge of hyperventilating when we went in2 the examination hall, when i saw that question, i almost stopped breathing. i know i sound so very exaggerating, but its true. chemistry has been my best subject so far in a-lvls n i tot i could nail it with an A for A2. n i worked my bloody ass of for chemistry. to think that it all came to be a waste. Y?? cos the paper was so darned horrible. i mean,come on. since when did chemistry applications become the 'new core chemistry'. its supposed to be filed under fucking options la. u damned english people, do u know wat the meaning of options is??? it means that its not important and we can choose wat we wanna do. y was dat damned chemistry 4 ppr so full of options. almost nothing of core chemistry came out. arrrghhhh!!!!!!!!!

as i looked through all the paper, it took all my willpower not to cry in the examination hall itself. the paper was so fucking hard la.. damn it... i just couldnt keep it in any longer when i called mummy n was talking to her. for once, i know how it feels to be so dissapointed in a paper. especially if the paper is ur best subject.

to haseena, raeyna n lai yen . thank you so much for just being there with me. i know the paper went bad for u guys as well. but seriously, thanks for making me feel better. love u guys loads.

to all those who had read this far, thank you for listening to the rantings of a deranged student.