do u believe in santa claus??

yesterday i was watching a movie called 'single santa looking 4 mrs.claus'...the synopsis is something like this > A single mother whose faith in love died with her former husband learns that Christmas miracles can still happen in director Harvey Frost's warmhearted tale of winter magic. Beth Andrews (Crystal Bernard) is a devoted single mother and advertising executive whose current campaign could put her on the fast track to the big time. The holiday season is here, and in order to sell the latest in video game technology, Beth's campaign needs the perfect Santa Claus. As Beth burns the midnight oil night after night and attempts to convince her young son Jake (Dominic Scott Kay) never to have faith in fantasies, the wistful young man pens a letter to Santa asking for a new dad for the holidays. It seems that up in the North Pole the time has come for Saint Nick to pass along the seasonal responsibilities to his son Nick (Steve Guttenberg), but in order to take the position, Nick must have a Mrs. Claus before Christmas Eve. Upon receiving the Christmas request from young Jake, Nick sets his sights on Los Angeles, and Beth Andrews in particular. Despite his best intentions, it's going to take more than a Christmas miracle to convince the dejected widow that love can still conquer all.

so it's another one of those romantic comedies where everything ends up just well n perfect... but while watching d movie, while watching Nick tryin 2 convince Beth that Santa is real it kinda reminded me of when i was a kid... i think when i was abt 4 or 5... dat christmas, as usual we went 4 d midnite mass... n when we came back.. all the presents were under d tree, n d glass of milk we left n d cookies were gone... well at dat time i was pretty sure i couldn't hv been my parents cos they were with us d whole time n wouldn't hv had d chance 2 do it b4 we came home... so i really tot dat Santa really came n gave us d presents.... n wats more, d following day when we were on our way 2 visit our grandparents in melaka, we passed this car which Santa, literally was sitting in....dat guy really looked like d SAnta in d movies.... wearing dat bright red suit, those gold-rimmed specs, dat bushy white hair n beard.... my sis n i were so excited seeing him... n he din dissapoint us.... he waved n winked at us, just wat Santa if he really existed would hv done.... it still tickles me when i recall dat moment... two excited lil girls n a car, n Santa in d next car waving... kinda like evry lil kid's dream come true... i guess it would hv been better if we saw him in a sleigh wit his reindeers XD...hehehe..

so dat brings me to d question

do you believe in Santa?

for me, i know i believe that Saint Nicholas existed,n he would hv given out presents 2 poor lil kids... n after he died, some good soul just kept up the tradition... but Santa i ain't so sure... i guess it's just so hard 2 believe dat some1 can go to all d lil kids in d world in one nite n give them all d presents... it's just too hard to believe for me... imagining is easy..... but wat abt u??? wat do u believe????

the beauty of little children

little children are a joy
to all who see them,
they are the best teachers
when it comes to loving and living
for they love without caution
and they live life to the fullest.

often we forget,
the simple beauties of life,
but for me,
i just need to look at a little child,
be it boy or girl,
n they can bring
joy untold to the depths of this cold heart.

only the little ones,
can give you a smile so true,
a smile that comes
right from the bottom of their hearts.
even hearts of stone will be melted
seeing true joy n love
in this world of lies n deceptions.

and most of all,
little children love you
for who you are now,
the care not of what you did,
or what you may do,
all that they care and love
is you,
just you, for who you are;
why so??
because children are gifted by God,
they can see right through your heart,
no words spoken,
they love you for that.

little children are a gift
a gift from God to this burdened world
that we may see and learn
that we too need to be like them
loving n trusting unconditionally
our great Father,
so we may one day be wit him too...





this is written for the little ones who hv made my life richer than money can possibly give, just by the presence of their lives in mine. especially for christina, damien, kathrina, luke boy n darrel, love you kids a lot. much more than words can say

time sure flies.....

phew!!!! as the title says, time sure flies... it's been 2 days sincemy last post n somany things have happened.... we'll go back 2 wed n d events dat happened....

highlights of wedesday:-

1) was at d undang testing center at 8am...was excited 2 sit 4 d test so i could faster go 4 d amali n start drving lessons.... but no, d stupid &^*&$^#^$# jpj ppl had 2 leave their computers off9... so i couldn't book my id 4 d test..... was there till 1pm n still cannot....hmmmph...malaysia really sucks...after waiting dere 4 5 bloody hours... my mood was sour....

2)came home,had lunch n den mom made me clean up d study room.... cant blame her actually, cos d room has been in a total mess since d AS exams...yes i know it ended like a month ago.... but i cant help it....pity d poor child... i am a procrastinator... it is my duty 2 procrastinate....hehehe...XD

3) time now is 4.30pm n i'm rushing 2 d hair dressers.... my hair has been like a golly-wog (i dun think dats d rite spelling, but who cares)... not really dat bad la, but its been real messy... so got a good hair cut.... not dat i've got a diff style or anything, but it just feels good 2 look neat...

4) at home again n now rushing n putting up a few more strands of lights... no idea wats gotten in2 us this year, but we're in 2 a very lighted up mode.... there's lots of lights ard our hse, even on d outside...had 2 get all dat done b4 6.30pm cos after dat had 2 go makan, mandi n go carroling....

5) we ran behind time.... its 7pm now n now only we eating dinner... so rush rush n eat n den go mandi.... n den by 8pm we were out of d hse.....n on d road carolling from hse 2 hse... damn it was fun hanging out wit all those wacko fellas.l.. esp d twins roy n & collin.... they r so crazy dat i can't find words 2 describe....it's kinda funny dat i'm sayin this altho they're only 2 yrs jr 2 me.... but i've seen them grow up... n it's really cute 2 see their faces sometimes when i remind them of wat they used 2 do round church.... hehehe.. i guess i'm alwayz gonna hv a soft spot 4 those 2 fellas....

6) back at my place at 10...d carollers r on their way 2 my place now... y u may ask???... cos my hse is d last spot 4 d day....hehehe....we made them sing extra songs....n santa wanted 2 dance but sadly no1 wanted 2 dance wit him.... poor santa!!!.....pics n vids will be posted l8er when i upload them frm d cam.... d whole affair ended at abt 11.30pm... n den i crashed in2 bed..... a suprisingly wonderful ending 2 a day dat began so sourly....XD


now, d highlights of thursday:-

1) again i had 2 go 2 d undang testing center at 8am...n again d jpj comps were off9....haiyo.... i hv no idea wats happening 2 our country.... but anyways at abt 9 d comps suddenly came on9 n my name managed to get an id 4 d test.... phew!!.. porr thing d 2 other guys who came wit me.... n sommore after my name went in ar... they nvr tell me until i went n asked them.... then only they said "oww ur name managed 2 get booking edi"... menyampah betul!!! so if i din go n ask them i think i'll hv 2 wait till 1 something again....so finally i went 2 sit 4 d test at 10.20am.... quite easy la d test... on contrary 2 wat others say... as long as u read d 500questions book ar... sure can pass....anyways i passed 48/50....whoot!!!! now i can go 4 amali edi n start driving... yipeee!!!!

2) came home happily.... n den mummy says..."come follow me, i'm goin 2 do pedicure, wanna do also?".... of course la i wanna do...so i went wit her... n now i hv a nice xmas design on my toes.... next week we goin 4 manicure....the luxuries of life i love...XD

dat was basically d highlights of thurs la... i gues we all were kinda tired n need d rest, so basically d rest of d oafternoon was spent sleeping n carolling at nite again...

today is friday, n while d day has just begun we've already set one cake for baking...n preparing d ingredients 4 another one....wohooo!!! so 2day has officially been labled by me as 'baking day'......


2 be cont l8er

the most wonderful time of the year.......

today was the most hectic day ever....started off in d morning at 10 la... b4 dat was lazying ard a bit....so dat dun count.... as i was saying....started at 10 by following mummy 2 giants 2 do all the provision shopping n all d stuff 4 baking n we were supposed 2 buy a turkey from dere as well...cos in our home, the celebration is only complete wit mummy's home baked turkey n stuffing....mmmmm, makes my mouth water just thinkin abt it....anyways, giants din hv d turkey...so we drove all d way 2 tesco 2 buy d turkey.... n just our luck.... it was d lst bird dere....phew!!!...now we're back home at 2 p.m...... imagine dat, 4 hours just spent 2 do shopping.... now come d xmas deco all, after lunch n a lil resting we start by putting up d tree....btw ppl, d tree is taller than me...so i was hving my ego battered by a non-living tree who was giving me hell just coz he was taller than me....hmmph!!!... but d tree looks so pretty now wit all d deco on it....hehehehe... i just love xmas time... n we were doin d deco till abt 5.30 p.m.... cos then mummy had 2 go n pick mel up from work.....mummy came back at abt 7... and then we continued 2 put d deco all ard d house.... the house looks so greeny n blinky now.... in d middle of doin it all, yours truly had a spectacular moment.... me slpping form d top of d organ, side stepping d organ chair n landing on d floor on my hands like some pro break dancer.... phew!!! n no bones broken!!! dats a miracle i tell ya.... had no idea i could do moves like dat....do it again intentionally i think i'll break some bones....

grace if ur reading this, i blame d falling on u.... watever happens 2 u seems 2 happen 2 me n vice versa.....better get me a nice xmas present ya!!!!hehehehe.....

so dat was d most hectic day ever....we only finished all d decorating at abt 9.30... took damn long.... but d house looks so nice n chirsmassy now.... i love this time of d year.... it certainly is d most fun time of all....

happy feet.....hmmm

since classes ended yesterday at 12.....grace n i decided 2 treat ourselves wit 'happy feet'....the whole event was practically free....

1) d ride from coll to pyramid: initially, grace n i decided we would hail a cab n get ourselves there 4 the show at 12:10... we didnt hv 2 cos wai cheng offered 2 send us there on her way home.... no $$$ spent at all...

2) den comes d movie tickets... grace's dad managed 2 get some free passes 4 us 2 watch the movie.... so dat was also free

3) d ride back from pyramid 2 coll: grace had arranged wit her dad 2 pick her up after we were done.... so i got a free ride back 2 coll.... again no $$$ out of d pocket.... XD

see, the purpose 4 d outing was paid for, n d transport also all covered.... so practically grace n i went 4 a free show.... don't it just give new meaning 2 'free show'??....hehehehehehe....

anyways the only $$$$ spent was when we bought the popcorn n drinks.... dats all.... a mere RM8 spent 4 2 persons 2 watch a movie... life is good....

so now lets talk abt the star of the movie, mumble happy feet.... i totally feel for d dude, cos i 2 am hopeess at singing.... tho i dun think i'm as bad as he is... i can carry a tune sometimes... not always, but sometimes....anyways, i think it's cool dat he can't sing cos in d end it was his tap dancing dat eventually saved the whole colony.....but my fav character aint mumble d emperor penguin, but actually ramon, d spunky lil penguin who speaks spanish.....ramon's also part of a group of 5 penguins who call themselves adelie amigos... well these lil fellas din care if u cant sing, all they care is abt being urself... n for once in his life mumble feels happy n excepted....n den d story goes on blah blah blah..... there aint much of a storyline 2 d movie... but it's the funny antics dat d animators hv put in2 d penguins......was a good laugh n i came out hving enjoyed myself....


after d movie, i went 2 do some xmas shopping 4 my parents.... managed 2 get soemthing 4 my mom, but not my dad...hmmm... it's just so hard 2 find good gifts 4 guys n men.....troublesome species they are....n i got myself a cool t-shirt... which when i went home i had 2 fight wit my mom n sis 2 keep it cos they wanted it....haiyo.....

i shall end dis long post now....

p.s.: i'm officially prepared n ready 2 go 4 xmas shopping marathonS.... XD

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it's time 2 dance....will you take my hand??

well AS exams ended 2day n yet we have to trudge to college tmrw to continue studying 4 A2.... dats bloody sucky.... but on a brighter note, i went 2 mid valley wit the guys and grace n we watched STEP UP.....awesome movie.... i totally loved it.... well since i aint good wit those narrative posts, i shall just stop here....


the strings of my soul start to play
as the music of my feelings are heard
the time is now
this is the moment
the music echoes through my bones
softly, gently if u would listen
the soul cries for love...
it is the time to dance
will you take my hand??
will you be the one
to take me through the night,
among the stars in the dark sky
to dance our lives away
together, forever....
the time is now;
will you take my hand???

my prayer for a while....

LORD MOVE, OR MOVE ME

(by FFH)

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I can't find the words to pray, I'm a little down today

Can You help me, Can You hold me?

I feel a million miles away, And I don't know what to say

Can You hear me anyway?

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What I need is for You to reach out Your hand

You have taught me no matter what You'd understand

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CHORUS:

Lord move in the way, that I've never seen before

Cause there's a mountain in the way and a lock on the door

I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore

So Lord move (move), or move me.

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I've looked every where to find a simple peace of mind

But, I can't find nothing on my own

So I gotta leave myself behind, take up this cross of mine

Give away everything I hold onto

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Lord I know the only way is through this

But Lord, I know I need You to help me do this

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CHORUS

Lord move in the way, that I've never seen before

Cause there's a mountain in the way and a lock on the door

I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore

So Lord move (move), or move me.

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Out of this place of complacency

To a place of fellowship with Thee

'Cause I am weak, but Lord, You are so strong

And You know it's been way too long

It's been way too long

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Lord move in the way, that I've never seen before

Cause there's a mountain in the way and a lock on the door

I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore So Lord move (move)...,

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CHORUS

walking in the rain

a wonderful feeling beckons
just standing in the rain
letting the rain just wash over me
all my troubles washed away
all my fears and insecurities; gone
just walking in the rain

jumping into puddles
and eating lollipops
a wonderful feeling i can't compare
it's been long since i felt so free
it's been ages since i felt light as a feather
oh what joy to be in the presence of nature

to feel the rain on my skin
to feel the wind mess my hair
and to hear
the beautiful sound of music
the rain makes
it makes me feel alive

i'm in college now...supposed to be studying for the last subject bio, but my mind has been feeling depressed since lunch was over..... i somehow blame it on the cabonara i ate.... as i was feeling all right before dat..... so anyways since tje library is a depressing place.... grace n i decided to go for a walk outside..... it was raining n i suddenly had this urge to run in the rain and jump into puddles..... i dunno wat made me do it.... but i just went ahead n did it..... n i loved it....i started laughing the moment i felt the rain on my skin.....it was just exhilarating... like as if i was high or something.... i guess i was knowing me...... but it felt wonderful...... my resolution after the bio paper: to run in the rain and get wet n love it...... but most of all, to be ALIVE!!!!! exams kinda make u feel dead......

You Are a Traveler Soul

You're a thrill seeker who loves to be active and on the moveYou love to wander: between places, ideas, and people.A good communicator, you're a nonconformist and interested in the world.You are an explorer, a good storyteller, and a true dreamer. Because you're always on the move, you can be a bit fickle.It's difficult for you to make personal commitments.Don't be so quick to ignore emotional issues and problems.You're much more intuitive and psychic than you think. Souls you are most compatible with: Retrospective Soul and Dreaming Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

sometimes i just wish.............

it's early in the morning
contrary to the fun of the past days
today started on a bad note
life is certainly funny ain't it??
just when u thought it couldn't get better
it takes a turn for worse
yes, indeed
life is the harshest teacher ever
but at the end of some days
it leaves me feeling as if
life may not be worth living at all
my fire grows dim
some days the rain and storm
they threaten to snuff it all out together
sometimes i just wish they did

sometimes i just wish that i was the one
solely in control of my destiny
not just a puppet with feelings
who is just part of the never-ending story: life

sometimes i just wish
that i could live life to the fullest
just the way i would love it to be
without any consequences
without any restrains
without being told what i should do
without being expected to perform

sometimes i just wish
i could give it my all without being afraid
afraid of the outcomes
afraid of life itself
but fear surrounds me like a shroud
threatening to envelope my very being

sometimes i just want to be
like the wild horses or the eagles
just running free
cruising with the wind
to fly high above it all
away from all the hurts
away from all barriers

why, oh why??
do we love binding ourselves
with these chains of life...
why, oh why??
do we allow ourselves
to be chained by the norms of society
why, oh why??
don't we just allow ourselves
to celebrate our individualism
our being different from one another
why, can't we just let
the person who hides inside
be exposed, and let live
why??

sometimes i just wish
that i didn't feel so alone
like a lonely cactus in a barren desert
but most of all,
sometimes i just wish
that life never at all
began for me......

i cant breathe
my mind is all woozy
stuck in this world of in between
nothing seems real anymore
reality is my imagination now
i feel like the flame is due
why? you may ask....
cos............................








arrgh!!!!!! i'm sick!!!!!!!








its so bloody irratating cos i've bio pract on thurs...... how i'm gonna get thru dat wit a running nose i hv no idea...... arrgh!!!!!!

it ends tonight

THE ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS

It Ends Tonight

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Your subtleties

They strangle me

I can't explain myself at all.

And all that wants

And all that needs

All I don't want to need at all.

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The walls start breathing

My minds unweaving

Maybe it's best you leave me alone.

A weight is lifted

On this evening

I give the final blow.

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When darkness turns to light,

It ends tonight

It ends tonight.

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A falling star

Least I fall alone.

I can't explain what you can't explain.

Your finding things that you didn't know

I look at you with such disdain

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The walls start breathing

My minds unweaving

Maybe it's best you leave me alone.

A weight is lifted

On this evening

I give the final blow.

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[Chorus]

When darkness turns to light

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

Just a little insight will make this right

It's too late to fight

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

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Now I'm on my own side

It's better than being on your side

It's my fault when your blind

It's better that I see it through your eyes

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All these thoughts locked inside

Now you're the first to know

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[Chorus x2]

i believe in miracles!!!!!!

~1 Cor 2:9~

Eye has not seen, ear has not heard, nor has it dawned on the mind what God has prepared for those who love him.

~Jeremiah 29:11~

For I know the plans I have for you; plans to save you and not to harm you, plans to give you a future and to give you hope.

where the eagle flies.....

the nest is bare
prickly against the tender flesh
of the young bird

meant to fly,
but the little one is afraid
fear weighs him down like a boulder
afraid if he takes the plunge
he may never fly again at all

it's a little late,
but she's not long overdue,
soon she will fly
once she breaks the chains that hold
her pretty wings captive

soon, not too far in the future,
the little one will fly,
high in the realm of the skies
where the eagles are the kings

look out to see the little one
flexing their wings
and riding the currents
braving all the obstacles

soaring high above them all, 

right where the eagle flies

rising I will touch the sky,
soon,
my time goes to arive,
when I rest in the given promise

elevándome tocaré el cielo,
pronto,
mi tiempo va a arive,
cuando descanso en la promesa dada

the golden post..........(",)

yess ppl this is the 50th post of my blog..... nothing exciting to blog abt except dat AS finals are starting next mon n dat currently i'm stuck on these songs.... beautiful.....

HINDER

"Lips Of An Angel"

Honey why are you calling me so late

It's kinda hard to talk right now

Honey why are you crying is everything okay

I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud

Well, my girls in the next room

Sometimes I wish she was you

I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name

It sounds so sweet

Coming from the lips of an angel

Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye

But girl you make it hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight

And yes I've dreamt of you too

And does he know you're talking to me

Will it start a fight

No I don't think she has a clue

Well my girls in the next room

Sometimes I wish she was you

I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name

It sounds so sweet

Coming from the lips of an angel

Hearing those wordsa it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye

But girl you make it hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name

It sounds so sweet

Coming from the lips of an angel

Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye

But girl you make it hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel (And I never wanna say goodbye)

But girl you make it so hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel

Honey why are you calling me so late

NEW FOUND GLORY

"Oxygen"

Constantly connected to the total unexpected

I'm a con, a stealer of hearts

I only keep this facade

To keep you on your toes

I'll take a glance while you sleep at night

Right from under your nose

So don't leave me

Don't leave, don't leave me here

I can't breathe without you

Don't leave, don't leave me here

I don't want to be without you

I don't want to live without you

I don't want to breathe without you (You're my oxygen)

It's hard to get rejected

By the one you most expected to be by your side

Your first thought being you should run and hide

I don't think you're to blame

I'll get you on your toes

I'll dream of you while I'm asleep at night

So nobody will know

So don't leave me

Don't leave, don't leave me here

I can't breathe without you

Don't leave, don't leave me here

I don't want to be without you

I don't want to live without you

I don't want to breathe without you (You're my oxygen)

Oxygen

With me, is where you belong

Right with me, is where you belong

Right here (Right here)

Right here (Don't leave me)

Don't leave, don't leave me here

I can't breathe without you

Don't leave, don't leave me

Cause I can't live without you(So don't leave)

Don't leave, don't leave me here

I can't breathe without you

Don't leave, don't leave me

I don't want to breathe without you

You're my oxygen

I don't want to breathe without you

You're my oxygen

Oxygen

Oxygen

Oxygen

Happy Birthday Mummy!!!!!

well today is mummy's b'day.... so b4 dis daddy, mel n i decided 2 suprise her... it was all a suprise.... the gift n the cake n everything..... rite now i cant upload the video yet, so here are some photos.....

Photo #1: when mummy 2st received the FedEx package

Photo #2: mummy still tryin 2 open the package
Photo #3: the gift box finally out of the packaging....for such a lil thing FedEx used such a big packet.....
Photo #4: mummy finally opened the box n smiling as she looked at the rosary....
Photo #5: the gift revealed....a genuine mother of pearl with silver sterling, hand crafted rosary with life time guarantee.... cool eh??? maybe not for everyone, but for mummy it's helluva lot....

remember one of my posts some time back abt a pair of merbuks nesting at my place??..... well on sunday(01/10/06) the eggs hatched..... n two little birdies were welcomed into the world.... so aftert waiting a couple of days 4 those little birdies 2 get used 2 the world around them, today i decided 2 document their early stages of life..... on of those little guys was kinda shy, so only one birdie posed 4 me with mummy bird.... can u see the little fella snuggled up next to its mummy???.... ain't he cute???? (at least i think its a he.....)

only time...

the line was cast,
and the fish has snagged the line,
it's time to reel it in,
only time will tell,
if it is a prize catch...

all endings are beginings...

that chapter is closed,
a new one has begun,
however
my friend don't fret,
what we used to be,
who you used to be to me,
no one will ever replace,
we tried,
but that path was not ours to take,
one day you will find
the dream that you will cherish,
it was not me, my friend
who was destined to be that dream.....

just a few words for you,
all endings are beginings,
though at that time
we may not realise it,
it's true;
look for your begining,
where we ended....

it's been a while

dear bloggy,


it's certainly been a while..... i'm sorry for neglecting u, but wit the shackles on i ain't got much choice.... please understand.... but don't worry, i've got a lot to say since i've been away....


yours truly,