i cant breathe
my mind is all woozy
stuck in this world of in between
nothing seems real anymore
reality is my imagination now
i feel like the flame is due
why? you may ask....
cos............................








arrgh!!!!!! i'm sick!!!!!!!








its so bloody irratating cos i've bio pract on thurs...... how i'm gonna get thru dat wit a running nose i hv no idea...... arrgh!!!!!!

it ends tonight

THE ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS

It Ends Tonight

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Your subtleties

They strangle me

I can't explain myself at all.

And all that wants

And all that needs

All I don't want to need at all.

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The walls start breathing

My minds unweaving

Maybe it's best you leave me alone.

A weight is lifted

On this evening

I give the final blow.

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When darkness turns to light,

It ends tonight

It ends tonight.

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A falling star

Least I fall alone.

I can't explain what you can't explain.

Your finding things that you didn't know

I look at you with such disdain

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The walls start breathing

My minds unweaving

Maybe it's best you leave me alone.

A weight is lifted

On this evening

I give the final blow.

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[Chorus]

When darkness turns to light

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

Just a little insight will make this right

It's too late to fight

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

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Now I'm on my own side

It's better than being on your side

It's my fault when your blind

It's better that I see it through your eyes

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All these thoughts locked inside

Now you're the first to know

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[Chorus x2]

i believe in miracles!!!!!!

~1 Cor 2:9~

Eye has not seen, ear has not heard, nor has it dawned on the mind what God has prepared for those who love him.

~Jeremiah 29:11~

For I know the plans I have for you; plans to save you and not to harm you, plans to give you a future and to give you hope.

where the eagle flies.....

the nest is bare
prickly against the tender flesh
of the young bird

meant to fly,
but the little one is afraid
fear weighs him down like a boulder
afraid if he takes the plunge
he may never fly again at all

it's a little late,
but she's not long overdue,
soon she will fly
once she breaks the chains that hold
her pretty wings captive

soon, not too far in the future,
the little one will fly,
high in the realm of the skies
where the eagles are the kings

look out to see the little one
flexing their wings
and riding the currents
braving all the obstacles

soaring high above them all, 

right where the eagle flies

rising I will touch the sky,
soon,
my time goes to arive,
when I rest in the given promise

elevándome tocaré el cielo,
pronto,
mi tiempo va a arive,
cuando descanso en la promesa dada

the golden post..........(",)

yess ppl this is the 50th post of my blog..... nothing exciting to blog abt except dat AS finals are starting next mon n dat currently i'm stuck on these songs.... beautiful.....

HINDER

"Lips Of An Angel"

Honey why are you calling me so late

It's kinda hard to talk right now

Honey why are you crying is everything okay

I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud

Well, my girls in the next room

Sometimes I wish she was you

I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name

It sounds so sweet

Coming from the lips of an angel

Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye

But girl you make it hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight

And yes I've dreamt of you too

And does he know you're talking to me

Will it start a fight

No I don't think she has a clue

Well my girls in the next room

Sometimes I wish she was you

I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name

It sounds so sweet

Coming from the lips of an angel

Hearing those wordsa it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye

But girl you make it hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name

It sounds so sweet

Coming from the lips of an angel

Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye

But girl you make it hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel (And I never wanna say goodbye)

But girl you make it so hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel

Honey why are you calling me so late

NEW FOUND GLORY

"Oxygen"

Constantly connected to the total unexpected

I'm a con, a stealer of hearts

I only keep this facade

To keep you on your toes

I'll take a glance while you sleep at night

Right from under your nose

So don't leave me

Don't leave, don't leave me here

I can't breathe without you

Don't leave, don't leave me here

I don't want to be without you

I don't want to live without you

I don't want to breathe without you (You're my oxygen)

It's hard to get rejected

By the one you most expected to be by your side

Your first thought being you should run and hide

I don't think you're to blame

I'll get you on your toes

I'll dream of you while I'm asleep at night

So nobody will know

So don't leave me

Don't leave, don't leave me here

I can't breathe without you

Don't leave, don't leave me here

I don't want to be without you

I don't want to live without you

I don't want to breathe without you (You're my oxygen)

Oxygen

With me, is where you belong

Right with me, is where you belong

Right here (Right here)

Right here (Don't leave me)

Don't leave, don't leave me here

I can't breathe without you

Don't leave, don't leave me

Cause I can't live without you(So don't leave)

Don't leave, don't leave me here

I can't breathe without you

Don't leave, don't leave me

I don't want to breathe without you

You're my oxygen

I don't want to breathe without you

You're my oxygen

Oxygen

Oxygen

Oxygen

Happy Birthday Mummy!!!!!

well today is mummy's b'day.... so b4 dis daddy, mel n i decided 2 suprise her... it was all a suprise.... the gift n the cake n everything..... rite now i cant upload the video yet, so here are some photos.....

Photo #1: when mummy 2st received the FedEx package

Photo #2: mummy still tryin 2 open the package
Photo #3: the gift box finally out of the packaging....for such a lil thing FedEx used such a big packet.....
Photo #4: mummy finally opened the box n smiling as she looked at the rosary....
Photo #5: the gift revealed....a genuine mother of pearl with silver sterling, hand crafted rosary with life time guarantee.... cool eh??? maybe not for everyone, but for mummy it's helluva lot....

remember one of my posts some time back abt a pair of merbuks nesting at my place??..... well on sunday(01/10/06) the eggs hatched..... n two little birdies were welcomed into the world.... so aftert waiting a couple of days 4 those little birdies 2 get used 2 the world around them, today i decided 2 document their early stages of life..... on of those little guys was kinda shy, so only one birdie posed 4 me with mummy bird.... can u see the little fella snuggled up next to its mummy???.... ain't he cute???? (at least i think its a he.....)

only time...

the line was cast,
and the fish has snagged the line,
it's time to reel it in,
only time will tell,
if it is a prize catch...

all endings are beginings...

that chapter is closed,
a new one has begun,
however
my friend don't fret,
what we used to be,
who you used to be to me,
no one will ever replace,
we tried,
but that path was not ours to take,
one day you will find
the dream that you will cherish,
it was not me, my friend
who was destined to be that dream.....

just a few words for you,
all endings are beginings,
though at that time
we may not realise it,
it's true;
look for your begining,
where we ended....

it's been a while

dear bloggy,


it's certainly been a while..... i'm sorry for neglecting u, but wit the shackles on i ain't got much choice.... please understand.... but don't worry, i've got a lot to say since i've been away....


yours truly,

on a religious note

Heart Of Worship - Hillsongs

when the music fades
all is stripped away
and i simply come
longing just to bring
something that's of worth
that will bless your heart

i bring you more than a song
for a song in itself
is not what you have required
you search much deeper within
through the way things appear
you're looking into my heart

chorus
I'm coming back to the heart of worship
and it's all about you
It's all about you, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the thing i've made it
when it's all about you
it's all about you, Jesus

King of endless worth
no one could express
how much you deserve
though i'm weak and poor
all i have is yours
every single breath

i bring you more than a song
for a song in itself
is not what you have required
you search much deeper within
through the way things appear
you're looking into my heart

chorus
I'm coming back to the heart of worship
and it's all about you
It's all about you, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the thing i've made it
when it's all about you
it's all about you, Jesus

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
and it's all about you
It's all about you, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the thing i've made it
when it's all about you
it's all about you, Jesus


Here I am to Worship - Hillsongs

Light of the world
You stepped down into darkness
Opened my eyes let me see
Beauty that made this heart adore You
Hope of a life spent with You

Here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that You're my God
You're all together lovely, altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me

King of all days oh so highly exalted
Glorious in heaven above
Humbly You came to this earth You created
All for love's sake became poor

Here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that You're my God
You're all together lovely, altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me

I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross

Call upon the name of the Lord and be saved
Call upon the name of the Lord and be saved

Here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that You're my God
You're all together lovely, altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me


these past few months have taken a toil on my faith.... n at a point i was just a zombie walking around, my actions were wihtout faith....i just couldn't sit and pray.....thanks god for the gift of music and songs, because through these i was able to contemplate on the events that had happened and my role in my faith....now, i'm back on track again.... these two songs really helped me....just wanted to share them with u guys.........

randomity

well for one, my house is becomeing a breeding ground for birds.... it's really becoming a regular affair now.....previously, we've had a few visitors who came only once a year like the doves n the merbuk......only one pair per year.....this year a pair of merbuk made their nest n their little birdies have flown away last month ....now in our porch lamps there are two pairs of merbuk nesting.....n they're totally cool abt me sticking my face in their nest... fyi, most birds would hv abandoned the nest, but not these birds....well hopefully this time i'll be able to get a few pics of the babies as well....

n this is a pic of my darling little cousin, damian driving my mom's peugeot.... not bad eh this little guy???.....he could even ask me while driving, "chechi, are u taking a picture of me driving godma's car???".....so cute la he....

PD rocked!!!

ain't good with me writing too many words, so i'll keep it short...... grace, daniel, michael, vignesh, tanuj, shankar n i had a blast in PD... it was so relaxing n everyone was just chilling out n hanging out wit one another..... it really felt like a family on holiday.....n everyone knows dat with dat combination, there's bound to be some hilarious moments....well in short, it was fun n wait for the pics to be posted.....can only get them when grace uploads n burns them for us....chiowz....

the fog.....

the fog is dense
as the shades of grey shift about
the shadows are alive
and they're after me
i run and hide
but i'm going around in cricles
i keep coming back to where i started
to the place where everthing begins
to the place of my life
home is where it once used to be
now its just a grey house
where sadness emmanates from
the four walls entraps the hurricane
while outside the walls the sun shines
deceiving all who look

help me
i don't want to drown
in the raging waters of the tempest
but my lips are sealed
that is the curse of the house i live in

hurricane of emotions

the hurricane thunders
the rain pours
the seas are at turmoil
as the winds of the house upsurge
the peace is dispersed
the pieces thrown to the farthest, remotest end
as it creates a wreckage far worse than any known…..

the eye of the storm has passed
but with its passing
the tempest has worsened
it shows no sign of letting up
how long will it last?
No one knows for certain….

But one thing is for sure
The hurricane of emotions
Leaves behind a catastrophe.....
hearts have been broken,
dreams have been shattered,
too marred to be mended
only time will tell
how deep the effects of the hurricane
and then maybe, it may be mended…

but for now,
while the hurricane still rages
I will look for comfort n shelter….
If I can find them,
Blessed be my soul……

the black hole - part 2

i am an empty space
a void, a vacuum,
feelingless and emotionless
all i think about is myself
i am a black hole
selfish and arrogant
it is my nature
the way i am meant to be
don't blame me
for i am what i am,
just a black hole
taking up just a dot of the galaxy........

remember the journey.....

"If you keep focusing on your goal in life, how are you going to remember what happened before that? If you think the highlight of your life is going to be accomplishing that goal, then you aren't going to remember the special moments that happened before. It's not about the destination; it's about the journey. Always remember the journey"

as those of u who are in CAL know....our trials n our AS is coming up soon....n i know everyone is busy studying and everything but i just wanted to say.... don't forget the journey.....we all know this is gonna be a stressful period for each and everyone.....so if we accidentally tread on each others toes.... just chill k.....life is all about the blunders we make......it's also abt how we turn those blunders into laughters.......cheers everyone!!!!


and all the best for the exams!!!!

to those who are from other programmes....the wish goes out to you guys as well.....


and dun forget to remember the journey......

give life a good hard punch in the stomach......

" when life knocks u down , get up and knock it straight back" By someone smart

well that's wat i got from allen's blog.....plagiarism??...yes indeed, but for a good cause.... well here's the case....a certain good friend of mine has been having a very bad day and the pst weekend was no better.....so this goes out to you, Grace.... get up and give life a good hard punch in the stomach and show that u can handle anything that comes ur way....also tell life not to mess wit u...cos ur strong n u have friends that help you through...and i'm always here to listen if u need a ear and a shoulder.....

weird.....just plain wierd.......

the weirdest day i've ever experienced in my whole life.....let's be frank k... no one just walks up to you and starts spilling theire whole life story to u....but that's exactly what happened today...i didn't go for bio tutorial today, so while waiting for raeyna and thivyah i was sitting in the garden wit ashy and vernie....and while we were chatting this african guy just walks up to us and starts asking me if i'm from cpu.... n then to cut the very, very long story short.....he then introed himself n asked for vernie's name only.....btw his name is louis....which was a shocker for me....then he parks himself on the bench next to us n starts talking abt his failed attempts of getting a gf....n apparently he was hitting on the chinese girls only *me looking at ashy n rolling my eyes*......goes to show how shallow he is.... n then he says, but the indians are fine... n that he gets along really well with them probably becaus their girls are more or less the same....*me rolling my eyes again*.....next he asks us if we have bf's....although we were all single and available.....ashy n i said we were taken.....n vernie said she doesnt hv a bf......n he keeps goin like 'for real'... i think ebery sentence he uses ends wit a 'for real'......at this point vernie has to go to mac center to bring punitha in....n this guy like asks ashy n me to hook him up with vernie, coz he likes her.....gosh....*me rolls eyes for god knows the hundredth time'.....n ashy covers up for vernie trying to save her saying 'actually she's in love wit someone n they just had their 1st kiss yest....bla bla bla.....she was trying to turn him off... but he was very persistent n when vernie came back, he actually asked for her no..... thank god vernie does not have a handphone...... but he still doesn't give up... now he wants her msn....so vernie has no choice n gives.....n then vernie freaks when she realises that its 4.20 n asks me how i'm goin home....so i say that i'm following her cos i'm staying over at ashy's house.....luckily vernie catches it n says ok......phew.....n this guy keeps on talking n talking n talking.......he also says we look all very americanised but we still act very asianish.....*louie at this point is getting very irratated*.....n i start telling him off....n then i ask him if getting a bf/gf is so important..... nhe gives some bullshit answer abt how women are sooooooooooo important.....gimme a break.....thank god time flew quickly enough n we were soon excusing ourselves as the transport had arrived......phew.....stupid guy......


to those who find it hard to understand i shall give u an oral version tmrw.....for real.....

love....

To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead.
Bertrand Russell


accordingly i'm supposed to be three parts dead already.....