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well i guess i shall start from thursday... i din sleep d whole nite trying 2 prepare for mechanics ppr.. tried 2 finish all d trial pyq's... dats sucked.. was a zombie on friday.. mechanics ppr needless to say, sucked to the max!!!! i told mummy edi dat i expect to fail mechanics paper.. d only good thing abt friday i must say is dat i took daddy 2 play pool... yes ppl, i taught my daddy 2 play pool. n he proceeded 2 trash me at 'my' own game... XD but it was fun, since daddy is such a good sport.. hvent been able 2 catch a proper sleep since thursday.. for some reason i have a wierd disease.. i cant seem to sleep in after 8a.m., once in a while i can, but that 'once in a while' is as good as nonexistant... so i'm up early sat morning, trying desperately to sleep.. y??.. cos of d midnite service.. i'm too old 2 be sleeping in church n there's no way i could skip dat cos i had 2 be a godmother 4 a really cute lil girl who i just met on thursday... don't u just love parents n meddlesome aunties who fix everything n den expect u 2 perform??.. well wat the heck, it was easter, n dis girl is cute, so why not??..

come baptism time, when she went up d altar, she was too short 2 reach d baptismal font.. so urs truly decided to do d unexpected... i carried her.. n mind u, she was d only one to be carried.. the whole church started laughing n clapping, n my dear frens who were serving started cheering.. even fr. joachim couln't resist laughing.. XD i was an instant star after dat... y cant i just follow d rules n dun think?? too much of thinking causes all these.. dat was certainly an unforgettable easter..

yest nite we had our annual easter dinner and d lights just kept goin off. for some reason 4 d 1st half of d dinner, d lights kept goin on n off.. we hv decided dat ashley n mel hv something 2 do abt it. cos everytime he went 2 d loo n evertime mel stood up 2 take some food, d lights go out... but nothing beats d 1st time d lights went out..

*everybody talking*
*lights go out*

random ppl: apa la??!? whoooo!!!
mummy: oops! what happened?

*lights on*
ashley: wei, d foods gone!!! they took it when d lights were out. nice magic action!
me: they took it b4 d lights went out la. u were too busy talking 2 notice.. XD
ashley: cheh!! i tot they were doin some cool tricks..

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so that was it.. a very eventful n exciting easter 2007!!
some pics shall follow later

exams ahoy!!!

trials hv started as of yesterday... n boy i'm glad that the first paper was chemistry... i think it went well enough, partly because at least 5 out of d 9 questions mr. george touched during d tuition class right before that... so i've got high hopes on chemistry... i cant say the same for bio, cos my heart just aint in it... i hven't done as much as i should hv n i dun really have the drive for it... so this time round i'm not counting on it... i've even done more of maths this past few weeks in preparation 4 trials... wtf is wrong wit me la?? bio should be my top priority since i wanna do med... but it seems to be my last lately, n i still wanna do med... hmmph better get my head all sorted out by the end of these coming april hols... must be thoroughly prepared for A2.. i dun wanna make the same mistake i made last year during AS...

went 2 coll 2day to study... i did study but not much.. only a couple of hours... was chillin wit tanuj n mike till 9.30, followed by playing pool wit chandni n daim till 10.. den i went on 2 study till 11.45 b4 yen picked me up n we went 4 lunch... purpose of going 2 collect from miss ho the essays i had done: not accomplished.. i went 2 look 4 her 4 times, n she was not there in d staffroom all those 4 times, n i couldnt get her on her phone also.. damn pissing off...

anyways, lunch was an affair 2 remember... yen n i went 2 TGIF... we spent most of d time just chillin n catching up on erm..some issues... halfway thru d main course, we see dis baby cockaroach.. yen gets a bit freaked out n we call d waitress... d waitress is scared of d baby corckaroach, so she calls the manager.. n d manager comes n apologises for d cockaroach n when we ask him 2 get rid of it, he goes 2 find a tissue 1st.. when he comes back n looks 4 d cockaroach 2 kill it, he says it's gone when we can see it rite dere... yen points n he says 'owwh' n smashes d cockaroach n den tells us 2 enjoy our meal... d whole thing took more den 5 mins.. if it was just up 2 me, d first time i saw dat cockaroach i would hv smashed it.. but yen said no, so i didnt... we should write 2 some newspaper n complain abt d cockaroach infested TGIF in sbg... dey din even offer 2 pay for our meal... hmmph...

Stole this from Gracie's blog.. she in turn actually stole it from Joel's blog. since she did it for me, i'm reposting it.. so comments ppl.. i need 2 keep busy during d hols.. XD

if you leave a comment on this post:

1. I'll respond with something random about you
2. I'll challenge you to try something
3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you
4. I'll tell you something I like about you
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on yours

T.T

AAAARRRRGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just felt like doin dat.... exams are bursting my head out of its seams.... gosh!!!!!!!! y do they like 2 torture students?????

caffeine n me....

well yesterday ard this time, i was feeling pretty sleepy.. n d weather ard here hasn't been helping. since trials are like next week, n i need 2 study, i resorted 2 taking a cup of coffee 2 keep me awake till abt 11.30pm so i could finish whatever i had planned 4 d nite... the coffee certainly helped keep me awake not only till 11.30pm, bbut practically the whole nite....

since my mind was toooo hyper i decided 2 call grace n then i proceeded to keep her awake till 1.00am... n she was sleepy, but me, because of d caffein in my system, still couldn't sleep... so i trudged down from my room at 1.00am in the morning, when the whole house was asleep n started studying again... there was absolutely nothing else to do... i continued studying till abt 3.00am, before i started feeling tired, but not sleepy yet, so again i went into my room, n tried 2 sleep.... dis time i managed 2 get some shut-eye for only two hours... that blasted caffein in my system didn't allow me 2 sleep any longer... so at 5.00am i am awake again.. hmmph... n i've been up ever since n hv been absolutely hyper....some ppl did really get irratated wit me today... i'm sorry all u ppl, but i cant help d blasted effects of caffein...


anyways, dis song is stuck inm y head...
i like it especially when they go into d hallelujah chorus

FALL OUT BOY
Hum Hallelujah

It's all a game of this or that
Now this is there
that out of all the girls worse for wear
And you're someone
Who knows someone who knows someone
I once knew
And I just want to be a part of this

The road outside my house
Is paved with good intentions
Hire a construction crew
Cause it's hell on the engine
And you are the dreamer
And we are the dream.
I could write it better than you ever felt it.

So hum hallelujah,
Just off the key of reason
I thought I loved you
It was just how you looked in the light.
Our teenage vow in a parking lot
Till tonight do us part
I've seen the blues
And I've swallowed them too.

My words are my fate to hell
With our good name.
We mix up your guts
Your insight x-rays, and
One day we'll get nostalgic for disaster
we're a bull, your ears are just a china shop

I love you in the same way
There's chapel in the hospital
one foot in your bedroom
And one foot out the door
Sometimes we take chances,
Sometimes we take pills.
I could write it better than you ever felt it.

So hum hallelujah
Just off the key of reason
I thought I loved you
It was just how you looked in the light.
Our teenage vow in a parking lot
Till tonight, do us part
I've seen the blues
And I've swallowed them too.

Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelu...
Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelu...
(Hum hallelujah (Hum hallelujah), hum hallelujah (Hum hallelujah))

Our teenage vow in a parking lot
Till tonight do us part
I've seen the blues
And swallowed them too.
So...

Hum hallelujah
Just off the key of reason
I thought I loved you
It was just how you looked in the light.

Our teenage vow in a parking lot (Hum hallelujah)
Till tonight do us part
Our teenage vow in a parking lot (Hum hallelujah)
Till tonight do us part
Our teenage vow in a parking lot
Till tonight do us part
I've seen the blues
And I've swallowed them too.

just try a lil bit more....

usually i dun really care what others write on their own blogs. but once in a while i guess i just need to reply to some idiotic and unreasonable accusations.

we listen to our parents because we respect and love them, we are not delicate and can stand our own ground. there are times we stand up to our parents, but there are times also when we let them have their way. our parents aren't just some family figure, our parents are living persons who are actively involved in our lives and care abt the smallest details. it is just the extent of their love, it's a pity that some of you don't have that relationship. if you did, none of the comments passed would have even been formed in your minds. do not judge others with a scale relative to how you lead your life. there are vast differences between two people, no matter how alike they may seem. upbringings are different and family values harped on are different. maybe if some of you just decided to listen to wat others are saying instead of just hearing them speak, differences may be settled witout such a racket. if you would look deeper into the person, instead of just seeing who they seem to be, you might understand their dilemma. but that's not how you are right, you self-centered bigots!!! well, if everyone just cared, you would not be reading this....

i hope u have a nice day...

my name....

What Louisa Means

L is for Luxurious O is for Optimistic U is for Useful I is for Innocent S is for Serene A is for Articulate

What Does Your Name Mean?

What Abigail Means

A is for Amorous B is for Brainy I is for Impassioned G is for Godlike A is for Animated I is for Impressive L is for Loud

What Does Your Name Mean?

WHADDYA'LL THINK???

stole it from prakky's blog

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the queen's another year older!!!!!!!!

since i havent updated my blog for quite a while and i've been asked to update it one too many times, here goes....


as we all know it was the Queen a.k.a. Haseena's bday on wed (7/3/07)... so she had demanded that we throw her a party... n we did, we gave her a party she'll nvr forget... being the Queen, we gave her two cakes... one for eating and the other for CREAM WARS!!!!!!!!!

it all started wit daniel dunking her head into the cake... she got too excited n started throwing cream at others... the 1st one to be the victim was gim ling.. poor gal!!!

so she was the 1st in our class 2 be creamed... followed my me... *sigh*... i din expect haseena 2 cream every1 within her reach... so since we were all creamed, we decided 2 spread d love 2 d rest of d class.... well sharing is caring aint it??.. n since we care abt each other, it was d right thing to do... at d end of it, 3/4 of d members of PM8 were filled wit cream, except a few who managed 2 escape... it was so much fun actually... even d waiters at ac kept their distance from us, although they're quite used 2 our behaviour... since this is not d 1st time its happening...

basically every bday celelbrated wit PM8 is a blast... so if any1 wants a blast bday party.... u know which class to call... XD

i dont care

just because you sacrifice what you feel would have been necessary for the betterment of my life, dont expect me to be grateful......

i didn't ask you to do it...

day 3 = what drives me??

i'm still trying to figure this one out... so i really don't know at the moment... all this while i've just been flowing where the wind blows...

Day 2 = I'm not an accident

well dat was the theme for day two... hmmm dat i can live with... i know i am not an accident, n dat i'm meant to be just the way i am.. so no big deal abt dis one.. just sometimes when i wish i could be different, i need 2 remind myself that this is who i am, and this is exactly the way i am meant to be..

as i was chatting wit one of my msngr buddies, his personal msg went like this "in the pursuit of truth, i became a lie"... how many of us hv ended up just like that??.. we portray ourselves as perfect ppl leading perfect lives, but in reality, deep down inside, in the farthest corners of our beings, where no one else but ourselves ventures, a hurricane brews and unleashes itself. we are tossed by the storms of our own making, n yet sometimes, we are too proud to ask for help...WHY?? does the world really determine who we are and who we should be?? do we really need to change who we are deep inside to be who the world wants on thhe outside?? is it worth the pain and rejection?? most of the time, actually 99.999999999% of the time, it's not worth it...


so since i'm not an accident, and neither are you, we all shoud take time 2 be tour true selves... let's stive to make the world a truer world, not a world full of lies and disguises.. truth hurts sometimes, but in the end it's the only saving grace we have...

Day 1 = It's not abt me

i'm currently goin through dis book called 'The Purpose Driven Life',. it's a book on how ur supposed 2 find ur purpose in life, n since i've been preety much of a lost soul just simply wandering through life wothout any real purpose i decided 2 give the book a chance... so far so good... the aim of the book is to get me though life, while living my life according to the purpose God has designed for me...

so anyways, back to the theme of the day >>> IT'S NOT ABT ME.
when i 1st read it, i was thinking, if life's not abt me, then who is it abt??.. i mean, i'm the one living it n goin thru all the shit n everything, n dis guy says it's not abt me.. but pondering on it later, i did realise life aint abt me.. maybe not absolutely not abt me, but a large part of life in general does not revolve ard me.. for example, if i was having a shitty day, would dat make ur day shitty as well?? no rite... so that's it... it's just one example, but good enough 4 me, i could go on n on, but nvm, i'm 2 lazy...

so basically out of 2day's lesson, i am reminded that from ashes i was created n eventually i will return to ashes.. even if i'm dead or alive, life still goes on.. true, frens and family will mourn, but eventually move on with life.. life does not begin or end with me.. most importantly, i am just a single tread in the tapestry who can never really see its purpose in the pattern of the grand design...


dats it for day 1. period.

VaLeNtInE's DaY!!!

well, as i'm a single and looking gal, i really wasnt expecting much today... n when i woke up i decided dat i aint gonne brood ard n complain dat i ain't got a date or a valentine to spend wit as some of my frens did... n i'm glad i did dat, cos at d end of d day, i did get some flowers n cookies from a close fren.... mysterious things happen when u just don't expect them to.... so dat being said, my valentine's day was not mournful, neither was it very happening, but it just siuted me just fine... n since i'm in a good mood:


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HaPpY vAlEnTiNe'S dAy!!! to one and all... muahxxx

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d flowers n cookies i got from a good fren

well, well, well....

.::CANCER::.

The Cutie

[aww... i know i am XD]

MOST AMAZING KISSER. [now wouldn't u like 2 find out]

Very high sex appeal. [hmmm...]

Great in bed!!! [hmmm....]

Love is one of a kind. [definitely...]

Very romantic. [for me 2 know n 4 u 2 find out.... ;-p]

Most caring person you will ever meet! [definitely...]

Entirely creative. [not so sure abt this one....]

Extremely random and proud of it. [hell yeah!!!]

Freak in bed. [again, not sosure abt this one.... astrologers can be wrong.. prolly meant GREAT in bed...hehehehe]

Spontaneous. [uh huh!!]

Great tellin stories. [dats y kids love me.....]

Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. [anyone wanna try??]

Someone you should hold on to [hmmm....]



well, wat say u??... i'd like a few comments here... XD

have a little patience will ya??

PATIENCE by Take That

Just have a little, patience

I'm still hurting from a love I lost,
I'm feeling your frustration,
Then maybe all the pain will stop,
Just don't be close inside your arms tonight,
Don't be to hard on my emotions

(Chorus)
Cause I, need time,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while I'm still healing,
Just try and have a little patience,

I really wanna start over again,
I know u wanna be my salvation,
The one that I can always depend,

I'll try to be strong, believe me,
I'm trying to move on,
It's complicated but understand me,

Cause I need time,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while I'm still healing,
Just try and have a little patience,

Yeah, have a little patience, Yeah

Cause this scar runs so deep,
It's been hard,
But I have to believe me,

Have a little patience,
Have a little patience,

Cause I, I just need time,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while I'm still healing,
just try, and have a little patience,

Have a little patience,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while I'm still healing
just try and have a little... patience


my scars = to my horrible AS results..... mummy n daddy i'm very very sorry that i dissapointed u guys so bad... i just want 2 do d best n be the best 'me' i can be... it's not easy, n mummy i know ur very dissapointed wit me, but please be patient... i need 2 sort out my emotions 1st be4 everything else can fall into place... just please be patient....

u decide....

well as it has been advertised by my fellow bloggers n classmates.... the AS results are out... needless to say, i didn't do very well... it's not dat bad a set of resuls either, but still definitely not up to mark... for the first time in my entire schooling life, this is the first time that i hv been unable to snag a single A in my finals....every yr end exams n every major government exam i hv always been able to get at least one A.... so in a way ashley, wat u said is right.... in my book a B is bad.......

for my results, i have no one to blame but myself... i know i played to much n worked too little to produce the wanted results... it had been a great yr, i couldn't hv asked for a better class or grp of friends... n being 18, boundries were expanded... so i actually spent quite a bit of my time pushing 2 see how far those boundries went as far as going out wit frens n just chilling....

this has proved to be the undoing in our class... already as the 3rd and final semester progresses the class has been reduced... from the start of the course until now, the total population of 0601PM8 has decreased from 31 students to 21 students...

i'm just very, very sorry that i dissapointed my parents, n myself with my results.... as mentioned beforehand, this set of results is like the worst i've ever achieved... but i won't fall behind... there is approximately 4 months more to go before A2 starts and i dont wish to be left behind... IWONT BE LEFT BEHIND!! i promise that i will put my heart n soul into this exams n make this the best out of me...the past has already gone and not much can be done abt it... but d present is still here and the future is yet to be... for the sake of my future's sanity, i will do what needs to be done...

in line with that, as part of my punishment n a way of helping me prepare myself better... mummy has asked me to give up all the outings with my frens until the results for A2 is out and dat includes shopping n on9 chatting... in other words, my social life has to be put on hold till it is all over... but so far i hv agreed that is what i will do till at least the exams are over... after the exams we shall see what has to be done and decide then.... as grace said, this is humanly impossible.... but i will try.. i will give it my all cos i dun wanna look back n say i should hv taken dat more seriously in d future...

so dear freinds, i will be missing from cyberspace as often as i appeared the past yr...so it's gonna be a temporary hiatus until it's all over... i might drop in once in a while to update....


so till time again...cheers n god bless...
take care everyone....

emo....

dont know why... but i've just been feeeling really emo since last nite.... like there's dis dark cloud suspended over my head.... don't know why.... just want it 2 go away.... don't like being emo....

my ride...

not really important, but i tot it's cool dat i got a ride 4 my violin class 2day in a MErcedes 300SL-24....nice looking sports car.. n expensive...

one of mom's ex students happened 2 be goin down d same road 2 bandar baru n saw me walking...so she offered me a lift... how nice of her... anyways, god bless her 4 d ride....